Move Bitch!

Its a crazy world out there.

People just slipping in and out of ur life Just like that.
incredible number of ppl i've lost. Some intentional, some Unintentional.

Surfed by Iris's blog, and realized, how things have changed. well, she always says that she'd b there, and i too promised her that i'd be there. and look at how things are now. well, it isnt easy knowing that she's still kenneth's girlfriend. while I on the other hand have already lost eric. true enough, we ARE still friends despite my exbf and her current bf being best buddies.... Still..... no effort was made by either of us.

Maybe i aint important to her. Maybe she isnt important to me. I said id b there for her. but she's never turned to me, neither have i turned to her..hmm. havin tis confused feeling now. So is she Not there for me, or was i not there for her? Were we making use of each other, or is there realli such thing known as friendship? Friendship not due to circumstance. oh well..

Irregardless.. its gd 2 understand that life goes on. by hook or by crooK.
I was told to "have a good life ahead..."... sorry, but, even without ur "well-wishes". i still would have a good life.

Damn it. what do i want in a guy. i Wish i'd have a boyfriend like prisc. Im not turning les. but i wish i had a bf like her. She just knows sometimes. without having to make everything explicit. Isnt that good!? if everything has to be SPELT out. then why dont i just do things myself then!. hahaha..

Perfection's in the eye of the beholder. true enough, no ones perfect. In his eyes, i use to be perfect.. I can eat and eat and eat n grow fat and he wont mind. he'd say that its alright and HE MEANS IT!!.... i hate it when people complain that i eat too much or i shld eat less or go on diet or stop wasting $$ on food or say i shld exercise. I will try my utmost best to look good for myself, and eating isnt a sin, so as long as i still look good, why b other how much i eat!? screw anyone who tells me to eat less /lose weight. If it bothers u so much, then scOot!

Him in my eyes on the other hand... was that of a totally flawed person.. But i accepted it. tried polishing him.. Succeeded. And failed in a way, cuz he's no longer mine. I dont want him back either. and i mean it. hahaha... Being without him made me realize how much i do not want him in my life. nope, tis is not a self delusion. Cuz i believe...... i ought to get more than what ive gotten. (right OM?) Val's getting greeeeeeedy.... She wants to be treaten like how she ought to be... Enough of those shitty days. Enough of those teary eyed days.

2 choices. im getting a better life with someone else, or i get it on my own. Either way, there's no more room for an eric. or sad days. ~~Move bitch.~~

Oh Fugg.. paper's in less than 12 hrs. Shit!!.. and what am i doin here!!!>????