So much betta now.

Afew moments later,

Prisc came online. She said she felt that there was this "CALLING" that someone needed her online. Thanks dear. That's me. Thanks for coming online. Miss key didnt reply my msn. so she's proly slpin.

She mentioned tt i'm EMO and PARANOID, which is true to a certain extend. YES.. i am. i was.. ok. i still am.


PriScY says:
trust me.. it's james we're talking abt... not OTHER guys.

**claps** jame's bottle of peach vodka has done well. Reali scored unlimited points wif priscy. :P

Haha. prisc is right lar. u ARE aSleep.. its me. confusing myself with my confusing thoughts. i shld juz take things at surface value. Guess a part of me just wants J to be happy happy happy happy always. not be bogged by work stress n all. Best of all, i juz want the BOTH of us 2 b happy!... =) yes. i know we will.

~~~Lalala!!~~
thanks 4 cheerin me up priscy... hmm greg attempted too. but ended up vomiting blood... guess it's a Male-female thing. where we juz wont see eye to eye on all issues. hah. and thankeW keY for "tucking me in" to bed... (virtually)... haha. askin me 2 wash up.. slp . :) MuaKz... WILLIAM!!!!! wish u were online earlier.. :( thanks aniwae.. knew i could rant to u if ever i want to!! :)

Still think im an ugly duck.. one tt goes KWAKKKKKK KWWWAAAKKK...
not even a duckling. duckling grew up 2 b a swan. i'm a grown duck.
so.. KWWWaaaKKK!!!
will u still love this fat duck? :(

Tears at last.

dont complain about me not blogging k?... here i am, BLOGGING NOW!

and i'm in tears, looking really bad, blowing my nose out, wif mascarra comming off. It seems like it isnt that water proof after all!

it started off with me being in a bad mood, and stupid me, had to juz msg james to tell him im in a bad mood. after which, asked why, and i obviously dont know why!!!! if i know i would tell.. but val doesnt! how 2 telL!?!?! so his last msg went "ayah, u dont wish to say den nvm. i go slp ler. nitez" after that, i msged him called him... NO REPLY!!!!!!!

walaOoo i'm like left hanging there now lar! and i think i'm seriously so depressed! at least reply me to say he's ok.. etc. FINE, he msged me 2 say he's gona slp already.. so he's prolly slping. but still..... i dont feel at ease!

Feeling PMSsy.... PMS was never an excuse i gave myself. NEVER. guess now i really have to credit it ALLL to pms. i feel so volatile... i havent cried in ages. aaaagggeeesss. it was quite hard to get the tears rolling, but YES, now that its started, it cant stop.

AND I"M HUNGRY!!! i'm hungry n i'm upset, i'm tired, n i'm so lazy to shower!. what can be worst!? i cannot take hunger. i simply cant. once i'm hungry i'd be in a bad mood. and i can eat less, but i cant dont eat. :( i'm so upset now.... i'm so hungry, n i feel like eating supper... but i cant. cuz i'm trying to lose weight!

GosHhh all this nonsensical ranting.. swear i'm gona faint if i read them again. but hell no!!! i'm juz gona continue. Doubt james even reads it in the first place. im having a sore throat already... my throat's feeling all sore. =( think i'm being too demanding as a gf. im sorry. if im bad. dump me.

OH WHAT THE HELL AM I SAYING!!! i dont want him to do that!!! fine.. i'm suffering a lil frm inferiority complex.. so what... i dont think im good enough loR.... and so happens i've got a bf who doesnt express that well. HENCe my stupid brain running in all directions.

So why the hell do i care how others view me!? not OTHERs. it's my bf. i care for his opinion. hence my current trauma. i tink.. im really getting too concerned bout his words.sometimes i read too much into his meaning. he juz said he was gona slp! he's not ignoring u val!!! WAKE UP!!!

Priscy... Key.. where are u!!?? :( val just feels upset. no reason. really really no particular reason.... trust me when i say that.... James, wont u just get up, msg me.. and let me smile to bed tonight!?

I'M HUNGRY!!!!! i'd juz keep crying till i feel betta... emotionally at least.. useless me. Yes i know. so what. will u still love me for me? Its really true that i dont know wats goin through ur mind at times james. :(

my SUPRISE delivery!

Before Mr. J left, he asked for a favor, he said that his dad bought him and his mum an early Xmas gift, but there wasnt anyone arnd to collect it. Hence he asked if it was possible tt the entertainment set was sent to my house first, and he'd collect it when his back. I said Of cuz!!

When i asked for a reciept, he conveniently forgot, as it's with his mum, and he's always busy. Well, he mentioned that it was fine, as he gave my contact number, etc to the delivery person already. Being the ever sensitive val, i thought he would be sending me a gift or something when he asked for my address. I guess not.. sigh. He's a busy man.. plus he's busy with his impending trip, and humongous workload.. =(

He Jested and mentioned that maybe the deliv person wld sent a "gift" and when i LIT up and asked what it was.......... he said... "a microphone"... ('_'). Here's a tip from val, Never expect something from a guy... the lesser u expect, the lesser disappointment you'd get. I wasnt that dismayed actually, Since he's gona b away, n it's gona b the LONGEST time tt i aint gona c him. But there isnt any "ocassion".. so why the need for anything special? **Secretly wishing tt something wld happen tho**

So val just told prisc bout the roller coaster emotions she's got, n even the clever prisc Didnt think there wld be any "suprise" goin on, since val feels tt he isnt very romantic apparently. What a poker faced guy!!

**TING TONG** i napped on the sofa, was afraid i'd miss the delivery. It's all worth it =)


MY FAVE GERBERRAS!!!!!!!!!

3 red, 3 orange, 3 pink! along with a card that goes like tis:

WalaOOooo val's heart melted lar!!! Mushy? hair standing? U'RE JUST JEALOUS!!! NEH NEH NI POo pOO!!

Rang him up immediately!!!! It's the biggggggest bouquet of gerberras i've recieved!!! ThanK you Dear!!!!!!!!!!! =) **Beams** u sure do know how to make my day despite being away! Hmmm.. ok, i'm upgrading u to semi-romantic!!!!!! hehehhee.. Know u like the "gift" i got u too!! too bad i didnt have time to take pix of it!

Here are some thoughts for today:
"There isnt any "DAY" for special stuff, not the time of the year, nor the day of a month, everyday would b a special day, if u've got a special someone in ur heart. So why wait!? Quick do something sweeeet for that special someone now.. Be it a suprise for ur loved one, or just spending time with ur mates"

10 things i like

on my way to HV, and prisc is stuck at the apple center. As expected. In the meanwhile, guess i'd just blog, n keep myself entertained.

Here's 10 things I like about prisc:
1. she looks great! No matter what she wears. Great dress sense!
2. She mixes arnd with my friends / bf's friends v well!
3. We can bitch abt anything and have serious talks at the same time
4. We can stay in the toilet for the longest time, making ourselves pretty.
5. She listens to me whine
6. She understands what i'm saying most of the time, w/o me sayin it out.
7. We entertain each other, making each other hyped up abt food, outtings n god knows what. Haha
8. Our taste in guys are totally different, so there's no way we're gona FIGHT for the same guy
9. She's my sexy dancing clubbing partner!!
10. I can be oh so VALERIE when i'm with her :)

10 Things i like about key
1. She's LOUDER than i am
2. She makes "dramatic-val" seem mediocre
3. She's an inspiration. i wana b as skinny damn it!
4. She's always online, to provide a listening "ear"
5. She's *almost* the same size as me so she can lend me her pants!
6. She's always giving me advise, making me feel a lil chirpier!
7. She's my evil twin, when i dont know wat's wrong sometimes, i can count on her 2 give the best answers.
8. She's so Pretty!!
9. A photoslut like myself
10. She's the my kind of girl... =)

10 things i like about James
1. He always knows what to do, and has a clear head
2. He's got a stable job, and knows what he wants in future
3. He makes it a point to give in to me whenever we have our disagreements.
4. He walks me home everyday after work
5. He Messages me on his own will before he sleeps every nite.. *now how mani guy does tt w/o being asked by his gf!?*
6. It seems like seeing val is more impt than sleep!! and he IS wiling to forsake a little sleep! *what a change frm other guys* really am touched.
7. He's never late for impt stuff like work (only). every thing else, SURE LATE!. At least i wont need to worry
8. He can take care of himself best of all, he takes care of me too!!
9. I feel safe and cozy when i'm with him.. Be it just holding hands, or giving him a hugg. Makes me wana stay by his side.
10. Just the both of us, doing nothing, and i'd feel all contented already. =)
11. He remembers his promises made, things he agreed to do, and even THings i said!
12. He wants me to make things explicit, and he'd just do it!
13. My friends like him.
14. He remembers my fave flowers, food, and little things etc
15. He's fiercely loyal to his friends
16. He stays near by!! *now that's a plus point*
17. He dresses well. Think he looks really good in office wear. =)
18. VERY orderly *just the opposite of val*.. very "accountant"-style. haha
19. Not sure if he's the romantic kind of guy, wish he was.. but he gave me suprises!!! like the Yanzi CD!!
20. Very thoughtful guy indeed.
21. Not very expressive, Lots of probing needed, DONT even know wat he really likes and really wants, but he's definately making life easy for me by liking me the way i am.
22. Good memory.
23. EugH!!! he smokes lar!!! damn.. ok, i like it when he says tt he'd cut down. Hearing it makes me happy, because i really do want him 2 cut down. i hate it when my bf smokes. but u know what!? deep inside i know it'll b impossible for him 2 quit. Damn it. i know he wont, yet i feel happy when he say tt he wld. am i stupid or stupid or wat? I'd love any guy who'd give up smoking for me!! then again, it's impossible to give up smoking... sigh... no guy/girl wld b able to do it. DARLING I REALLY WISH YOU WLD SMOKE LESS OR NONE AT ALL!!! let tis b my chrismas, birthday, new year wish... then again, wishes seldom come true.... Now that he's going to BKK, i'm sure he'd smoke like nobody's buisness. So who am i to even bother/control him!? i've learnt my lesson through eric/jesse. I've learnt that i cant control/stop anione frm smoking, no matter how much i wish.. tis time round... i just thought that things were gona b different. there still was a glimmer of hope that things are gonna b different.... they're different in personality character etc. Guess it's the same when it comes to smoking. =( i wish.... i wish..... i wish.. Forget it lar! if he's happy doing it.. guess i can live with it.


Oops, did i say 10? guess i exceeded by quite abit!
In short, a James a day, keeps the troubles away!!
I'd miss him when he's away... sigh..

Shall leave the honors of posting pix/stories bout settlers cafe to PRISCY! val's tired. long day tmr.

funny ah neh..

Was surfing pass ron's blog and here's what i found

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FUNNY SHIT

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I swear it's funny. No doubt a racist and vulgar... haha.. Do check it out if u're free! Oh, follow the translation if u can. =)

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My new sitting arrangement totally sucks!! i do not like it there. i wana go back to where i was right infront of adrian, at the corner.. where i feel most at home.. =( My new seat is so far away from everywhere. And its totally empty. argH. i betta find new stuff to spruce it up! i so do not like it there!!

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Got a whole stack of DVDs / VCDs frm mr J, and TMD!!! the TV's in Black n White after i hook my new dvd on to it. oh damn it. He lend me the whole stack of shows, in attempt to keep me busy, and not SSTTTRRRAAAYYY while he's off to thailand. hahaha.. good attempt. First, lets fix the TV!!! grRr

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Feels good knowing that i'm OFF tomorrow!! whEee!! gona head to settler's cafe with priscy dear, chris, J, Greg, ++ Kinda miss prisc, havent seen her in a long while.. and Key's chatter!!! i only "hear" her through msn.. sigh. cant wait for 29th, where i can finally bask in the sun once more! =) new bikini pls!!

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Feel like goin to thailand, or taiwan.. Food's great there. If ever i go for a trip, i'd make sure i fast for 30 days first. Or else i'm NEVER gona lose that weight =( i so wana lose weight.. but i'm so easily hungry at the same time ..

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VAL WANTS TO EAT THE WAN TON MEE FRM 651!!!!

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it's bed time.. and its really cold n breezy tonite. somehow wish i wasnt snuggling alone in bed.. =) yaWnz..

Wake up QUITTER!

My weekend felt weirdly Fulfilling. Had Boonlay Nasi lemak for dinner, and headed to Jurong point for Harry Potter at 0040hrs. Thats bout it. Yet, it felt really really really satisfying. No doubt dinner + movie companion consists of a weird mix of Greg Myself and James, it still felt very very nice. =) WERID I KNOW.. val hates Jurong point. it's a market place to her.. a place where i head for lunch, get last min stuff etc. Guess its just a feeling of spending a WEEKEND with someone you love. a weeknight. After a tiresome/bothersome week of work, a weekend where both parties are feeling lighthearted and carefree, just getting to gether.. vaL feels contented. =)

Not in the best of moods now. No idea what's wrong man, Failed 2 quizes badly at work today, and got fugged up calls. Sometimes, i've got no idea why the hell am i even working, i can just get $$ frm my parents like what my bro's doing now. to hell with work, i'm a STUDENT, i'm STUDYING.... i dont need to pay for my bills, expenses, clothes, my parents will jolly well take care of em.. Feel like juz throwing the letter at times. It sucks having stupid ppl stepping on ur tail, doing stupid things like quizzes which i hate so very much. i hate quizzes, tests, exams, spot checks, anything quantifying. My abilities arent quantifiable. Guess its just a realistic way of measurement, and i failed it. damn. Here's what they taught me.. "It may be your 100001th call, but it's the customer's 1st." I make sure i've got that in mind b4 i answer any call. Professionalism u call that? job ethics i suppose. im taking your $$, i jolly well do my job and make sure i meet ur expectations.

I WISH

1. I had rich parents who'd buy me cars houses and everything i want
2. I had a rich husband who'd continue buying me cars houses and everything i want
3. I wish i had children who'd dote on me and buy me EVERYTHIHG i want
4. damn it. Forget the top 3, i just want to earn enough to buy myself anything and everything i want! on top of that. i wana make sure i can get my PARENTS the things they want, make my husband happy, and children contented.

Sorry. I have none of such abilities. For now, im just so sick and tired of work, that i wish to throw the letter. Damn it. speak of low morale and lack of motivation.. argh. Val's no longer a quitter. if it were the old me, i'd have left long ago. guess i cant leave now. i've got Responsibilities.. a responsibility to myself. I need this job. Damn val. whack urself and stop ur bloody ideas bout quitting n all. How the hell are u gonna even FEED yourself. To hell with independence. I shld just be every other stupid bimb. mix arnd with more trashy FE-male whom william can introduce me to, and just be...... trashy! LEECH on guys.. look towards $$$ fast cars and all.

So why in the world is val not LEECHING!?!?! why in the world does she prefer takin the MRT and Bus in comparison to a cab!? she wasnt brought up this way. she's conditioned to behave this way. Show me the $$ show me the $$ show me the $$!!! SLAP ME QUICK! make me snap out of this quit mode!

Results are out on the 7th... Jame's leavin on the 23rd, pay's in on the 26th.. blah blah blah. i'm sick of this boring life.... but that's life! hah. WAKE UP VAL!

val's FReggin messy!

Congrats to the 100TH successful post on this blog, appart from those few ocassions where blogger crashed on me, my bloggin experience has been an extremely memorable one =). Till date i've got erm.. 11178 counts on my stats, and i've been bloggin since.... 24th aug 2005! OK, so much for comemerating my 100th post! heh.

Its not an un known fact. And i really hate to admit it.. I'M FREGGIN MESSY!!!!!!! i'm only neat when i want to be, and i'd mess up my whole room, and pack it only when i've got the mood. It just feels great to throw every thing all about, anywhere i want to! i call this ORGANIZED MESS, because somehow or other, i DO know where my stuff are.. when mum packs my stuff.. that's it. you'd hear me SCREAMING.. "MUM!!!!!!!!!!!! wheres my XXXXXXX...!!!!?!?!?!?".. I finally admit the fact that i'm messy because of a few obvious facts i realized today:

1. Emails at work are in a mess, and unsorted
2. Wires are all over the table. Laptop Charger, HP charger, PDA charger, PDA cable, HP cable, External drive, External drive batt charger, Mouse, Earphones.. YOU NAME IT!
3. Clothes are left unsorted in my cupboard
4. Ear-Rings are left un-HUNG after wearing
5. Make up are left DISORGANIZED
6. Last sem's notes Un trashed
7. CDs unsorted
8. Even my FILES in my PDA are messy
9. Worst still, pictures in my Laptop are in a greater mess
10. Im starting to faint when i look the keyboard area of my table. Filled with god knows wat lar!

Damn it.. Damn damn DAMN IT! feeling more n more pissed off as i look at this sty of mine. i swear i'd pack it b4 the year ends.. *grinz* (note the long lead time) haha..

Resolution of the year. to be a NEATER PERSON!!! and not just stash my junk anywhere avail.. sigh. thank god my room's not that big. or it'll still be filled with my mess! Give val some credit lar ok? she can be really neat when she wants to. Unlike william who's a neat freak, i tink i'm not neat by nature! haha. really pity those who're gona have the chance to STAY with me. namely PRISC! :P.. operation NEAT VAL in progress!

Its a sat at long last. Finally a day where i can spent with J, without worries of having to go back early as he's got work the nxt dae.. Despite meeting up almost everyday, it's juz a short while! I do look 4ward to the weekends. ok, so sats are gona be DEDICATED to mr. J!!! :D even if ive gota go out wif friends, he's taggin along on sat niteS! wahaha.. well, my sat DAYS are to my girlies if they're ON for tanning! hehe.. I'd never forsake my babes.

Good nite everione, and have a goOd sat. it's my OFF DAY!!! ok 38 hilda and 38 ST... u guys gota work! wahahhahaa.. know u're checking tis out.. and ST wants me 2 proclaim tt both him and Hilda are 38s!!! haha

a drunk val is a truthful val

a druNkard vaL is a truthful val!!!! wHHhheeee!!!!!


a lil high, a lil tipsy, and very very grateful for whatever i've got now...

To Key: u'd always be the bez listening ear i've got. like priscy said, double trouble. we're quite a double, and everyone's gona be in trouble.

To priscy: Thanks for everything babe... u're always a joy to be with. the both of u have my deep dark secrets. and i've got urs too!!! spill any and we'd all be doomed!

To Mr J: i hope u know how i feel. Hope u like my lil gift... My lil gestures... I admit, i aint the best, neither am i the most understanding..... and more often than not, i'm paranoid, and i make u worry. blah blah blah blah yada yada yada!!! Think my tipsy sms to u earlier on says it all...... is it too quick, is it too soon!?!?!?!? for now.... i just know u're the only one i wana be with. Fugg my past. Its over. Screw it.... I think i love u james... Pls love me with all ur heart ok? dont break it like how eric did. Dont... Pls dont. i cant take another heart break. god damn it... ERIC!!! argHHhahhahahahadamn it damn it damn it. fuckin pissed... damn it...

never the less... at least i've got my babes, and i've got Mr J...

WHhehhehehehehe val's a happy girl for now. alcohol makes me happy... clubbing makes me feel sexy. all i want and need now is James to make me feel loved.

Good nite everyone. val's kinda tipsy.. kinda high, and she aint gona read wat she blog!
muaKKszzz!!! NITES!!!!!! LOVE Y'aLL!!!!

Prisc, Key: go find ur happiness..... :)

Unhappy val

val's unhappy.

She's unhappily unhappy, cuz she was unhappy with sumone, and said unhappy remarks, and someone else became unappy. therefore she is now unhappy that the person who initially made her unhappy is now unhappy.

Geddit? No? nevermind. Just read the words in italics or BOLD.

Feel lousy now. Not only did i not manage to take leave for my bro's bday, i didnt even get to wish him Happy birthday face to face. I wanted to get him a present, but realize that i'm too broke to do so. Guess i'd just have to wait till nxt mth. Felt so upset when i saw that the cake was still in the fridge. No one cut it yet. :( a heart wrenching kind of unhappiness.. Its the "xin Suan" kind of feeling..

"Sorry Des. Happy Birthday. Jie Jie Loves u.. and she just wants u to know how proud of u she is..... Proud that u're becoming the guy u are, clever, fun loving, fit, smart, handsome, cute, righteous, walking in the light of god, and being just the guy u are. U may never read this, but.. i'd be by ur side no matter what, cuz u're the only bro i've got"

today, it felt that my heart STILL could ache. Well, not a terrible pain, but a pang of anxiety..
my heart's kinda immuned to the pain that can be inflicted. When i begged eric to stay, to come back. That was heart wrenching. Never wld it happen again. I thought i wont feel a thing any more. So its true that he's gone, and i'd never be able to have similar happiness and sensations etc.. But val's moved on. She's got someone else. There wont be another person who doesnt think im fat and allows me to eat ALL I WANT. there wont be another person who's like eric. But u know what? no 2 person's exactly the same. the truth is...... Val has a pride too. Pride is Your downfall eric, its YOU shoving me aside, and not taking me back. My downfall on the other hand, wld be to believe you'd even come back. I know i've got someone else, someone whom i'm willing to work hard with... work towards a future which i thought was impossible. So hold my hands J, and lets walk. Walk walk walk, and walk. away from the past. No doubt its bitter, But trust me, if it was placed infront of me again, i'd stilll hold on to ur hands, and i'd not even flinch.

When i felt that anxiety for Mr. J. I knew things were gona b different frm now on. and Damn it. J keeps askin me 2 go back to eric if i think he's the right personfor me. Hell no. I pay for my mistake and eric pays for his! Since eric decided to move on before me, its only right that i move on as well. why stay in the same spot.. I'm happy with J that's final. I'm happy that he's happy, and i know feelings for him wld definately grow.

For one, he has got traits which i really admire. I may not feel totally at ease when i'm with him now, and i may even feel conscious, paranoid, insercure and god knows what, but, Hey! there's no bench mark for comparison.. Hell, we're only together for a short period of time. Its 2 entirly different relationships. He may not know how to express himself well, and his words sting a lil at times, but i guess.... i've been too sensitive, and even subconsciously comparing the 2 guys. Im sorry i did. Well, the fact is... I'm lookin 4ward. toward s the future. Aint gona get hung up on the past.

Mr. J, Thank You for saying sorry, giving in. being afraid that i'm angry etc... These are things that really touch my heart. These are things, which others may not have done... "a plant needs air water fertilizers and god knows what to grow..." "a relationship needs time, effort, concern, understanding, love, love, love, love, and lots of love." I'm sorry i upset u J. Just FYI, val's anxious about hw u're feeling. She cant help feeling anxious.... and she cant slp!!!! i think i reali was alil harsh... SORRY!!!!! *pulls ears*


Badminton day tmr!!! with prisc. val's gona make sure she perspires....


Key: thanks for hearing val out... hush hush.. i know my secrets r safe with u girls.. **huGgzz** love y'all!!! n thanks 4 ur advise "when u just get together, u just want ur partner to see the best of u"... Guess that was why i was upset with J, and J got upset.. If only J sees this.... He use to read my blog... not animore i guess.. Then again. he's bz wat!!! hmph! :)

post exam activities

At long last my back dated pictures are up. Sometimes i really wonder. Why do i even bother to take up time blogging, instead of using my precious time to do more productive things. Guess it's more or less a norm to blog general feelings, loved pictures, and strong views of mine. The feeling of clicking on to those archived items and jolting memories of the past is worth a million dollars!

Blogging is a way of re-arranging personal thoughts. Its a form of classification, re-arrangement, sorting, filtering, prioritization, elimination, and completion. Whatever u wana call it, but its all of the above to me. Like now, when i'm feeling all dull and listless, there's an outlet for my views... sigh...

Went to the beach on sat with Key and prisc


James gave me a lift from home, and after lunch, a lift INTO sentosa.. *thanks!*
Sun wasnt to key's expectation. that girl wants to turn turn BBBLLLAAACCKK.. well, it was just right for me, Mild tanning.. toO much would result in myself peeling from shoulders back to belly like before!

Really shaggggg that day, why? because val spent the night in clementi police station. I swear its more entertaining/interesting/pissifying than how i'm describing it in my blog, but in short. i fuggin hate the POLICE in general! purely based on personal experience. Dont know any police personally. Even if i do, i doubt i'd like them. oh bloody shit. they suck!

So there we were at mdm wong.. i reached at about 1140, had onli a couple of drinks, afew short rounds of dancing, and the CNB ppl were there. The clever val told james, "hey, they're there! lets go join them".. the police asked if we were together. we "cleverly" replied yes. They took our ICs, Led us out, and i thought they'd be escorting us OUT to GO HOME. Before we know it, they asked us to get Up a van, and there i was at clementi police station. not bad, we got a lift back tot he west.

We were supposed to get urine samples taken, and as requested, we need 3 bottles of pee. VALERIE JUST WENT TO THE TOILET, and it took hell long for the 3 bottles to be squeezed. For those who dont know (september 7th post), i really really do NOT have a "pee-as-demand" system in my body. The more i need the pee, the less i can pee. To make matters worst, I went to the toilet just before they raided the place.

Oh, can mention that i DO NOT squat and pee?? neither do i like someone watching me pee. A female so to speak!!! In short, i pulled my skirt up and my Gs down a total of 5X that night. 4X when i was ATTEMPTING to get the pee out (only successful on my LAST attempt. only managed a few drops the first 3X), and the 5th and last time i was exposed, was when i was at the lock up room, and all the water i drank HAD to come out. See what i mean, when i dont need it, it JUST have to come..

The female officer insisted that i squat, face her, and PEE with her looking at me. How bad can it get. :( The guys were worst off. An as* of an officer denied one guy of releasing his pee. and mr S*AN NG CH** P*NG of Clementi police station was hell rude. HELLLLL RUDEEEE i say. shall save my curses and swears. To make matters worst, i'm supposed to report back 2 weeks from now. what the hell man...

On the very same day, val busted $170 at kai, and $10 on neoprints with prisc, only to press the WRONG option, to end up with 36 SMALL shots! haha. Oh, and here's one way to really maximize the $$ spent. Take 36 small shots, get all 9 Pictures, use a good digi cam, and snap the print out!! hahahaa... that's what we did!!

Spent lots of time writing, scribbling, erasing, figuring out those jap words, etc.. Was FUNNN tho!! =) The last time i took a neo pic/card... was with eric. The realized the pic we took never left my wallet. Only realized when it dropped out of my wallet today. It was totally forgotten and left untouched. The fact that it dropped out, meant that it's supposed to leave. It chose to drop out. So i'd let it. I LOVE TO TAKE THESE PIX. ok, so what if only those kids and ah lians take it!? they produce quality pix, produce flawless complexion, make smiles brilliant, leaves memories, and they FIT INTO WALLETS! hmph. i'm so taking more of it, when i the right person comes along! hahz!

Exams are over. At long last. After the 2nd one, it felt as tho it was all over. Now we'd just have to wait till 7th December, and keep our fingers Crossed.

Wow. i've got hell lot of activities lined up. i'm a busy busy girl. BBQ, KTV, Tanning, Shopping, Settlers Cafe, Wakeboarding, etc. Now all i lack is the $$

Time to post those Pictures i've been owing. Aint exactly lookin forward to reviewing those pix, editing, and hosting them. For the very fact that i know they look bad. Well, every girl LOVE her own pix to be fantabulous, who doesnt!? sigh. My pix are somewhat disgusting. I'd pick the Not so Disgusting ones. Wont want to tarnish my own, or betta still, Someone elses "reputation" :P

Sorta fixed the pix so i wont DRAIN all u peeps with my never ending pix.
PRESENTING, my STUDY KAKI. Priscilla! Its true that i cant study without her. its true that she's the reason i'm even got tis far for both my studies and "recovery". and it's ALSO true i made her fat by feeding and feeding and feeding her. ;) There u go. Priscy, Not looking her peak (or so she claims). but still lookin great!



L-R: Dozing off /// Enjoying her "percy pig" frm marks and Spencer /// Cheating on me by SMS-ing As usual /// getting herself upset thanks to some idiotic bastard whom i wish to murder /// acting teary /// being coy, since she got herself a date for the nite, while val has to head home!

Spent most of my time studyin at NP atrium, as well as west coast mac. Then again, WCP was used for more activities other than studies.. Check out the Bunch that's constantly there!



L-R: ooOpss. is that a bulge i see somewehre!? hahaha. /// David shoOting himself. imean. he should at times! *grinz* /// David and Greg, Greg has this weird theory on how ppl shld not reply too quickly on MSN or the opposite gender wld think he's got no one to talk to. Hmm. Cool. But. how true!? haha /// Al Fresco!! there use to be only 2 signs of NO SMOKING, after those guys invaded the place, there seem to be MORE printed signs of NO SMOKING. Does any one even bother these days? /// AIRCONDITIONED side of mac. Loved only by James and Myself. Its really condusive. Grinz.


Like i mentioned, we do have our share of FUN, at the "pao pao cha" in NP library, Watching movies just after our 2nd paper, being photo sluts... bitching, indulging in endless stories. etc. Pictures say a thousand words.. :)


Other Misc pix...




L-R: James n myself after Lunch, on the way to school.. sigh.. /// muggin hard b4 OE paper /// *MeoWmeoW* =) /// An evening view of NP /// WINDOW shopping at Toss, havent been shoppin there for the longest time. sorry francis /// vaL with the irritating Chicken Little /// James and Val on a date /// william and yang lunching and conning some girlie /// Francis + VaL /// Mr. Andy Oh + vaL. Man.. he looks run down. Bet those students are bullyin him! :(

Lastly, Here's Valerie.. the fattie. oh Damn it. i wana lose weight. i shall not just SAY (according 2 prisc). i shall DO IT!!! i'm so NOT having supper.... =(

Post exam, Pre-blog entry

I havent MIA-ed.

Attempted blogging and editing all the pix. it take DONKEY YEARS I SWEAR!!!
nevertheless. they'd be UP soon. yaWnz.

give up. val's off to bed. Tiring editing and cutting etc. yaWnz.

Dbl0 on wed and it's gona b MdmWong on Fri. Gosh..
But it was great on Wed.

Met up with Kenneth, James and Greg for dinner with prisc, and Priscy n i headed OFF. just the 2 of us. but i was good tt nite! i swear!!! rite prisc? hehehehe. Then we saw vanassa, kenn, leonard, meryl, mya, Damien, shiryn, simin. FwoaHh..

Feel like i've got so much to blogg. Not enough time. I need sleeeeeeepp..

In short, i'm really happy these days. Thanks to eric who closed the door shut. i felt free to go. I didnt shed another tear. and i reallly did move on. I'm happy with the life i've got now. Happy doin the things i do, Being with the people i'm with.

I've gotten to realize that there ARE better people, and people who dont make me worry so much. For that i am glad. In short. val's feelin content, and Happy!

Oh.. gotten a wedding invitation.. =) hehhee..

Weekends are HERE!!!! i'm so lookin 4ward to spending it the way i've planned... Rite Prisc, key, BM, James? hehe...


Nitez all, val's concussed.

Sorry william

For those who havent already saw william's blog. Do check out what a chauvanist guy wants.
Oh. and when u're done. Sneak a peek at my wish list wld ya? i'd do a more comprehensive one afther the 8th!


- i wan a lady, not a girl I am a lady, girlie by choice

- i wan someone who's filial, having close ties with her kins Love my family, cherish my friends

- i wan someone who can look at me n tell me that they dun need to depend on guys financially U know i earn my own keep. and Have enough to spend

- i wan someone who is not afraid to voice out her opinions, even if it will piss me off Most definately will, Im as vocal as i seem.

- i wan someone who is hygenic Now that's for sure. *winkz*

- i wan someone to get into a r/n with me, only because they love me, n not becos they wan love Disagree on that. Id want my guy to love me more. just a lil more than i love him

- i wan someone who can motivate me to be a better person U're so nua that even mother theresa wld give up. Nevertheless. I do think im quite a motivator

- i wan someone who does not speak in broken english Now i dont for sure!

- i wan someone who does not speak in broken chinese Maybe when i'm reading.

- i wan someone who is daring, n not screech when they see a cockroach, not including fly ones Roaches, no. Birds yes. cummon, everyone has their lil closet fear.

- i wan someone who is sticky to me, but at the same time having a respect for my own privacy Yes. i do draw the line.

- i wan someone who has got maternal instincts Uhuh. im quite "ma-Ma" material

- i wan someone tt has got ambitions, n not sitting back n waiting for me to feed her Ambition?" oh... Drive u mean. Yes. More than most girls, More than you for sure.

- i wan someone who does not mind my past That really depends on whether u mind MY past.

- i wan someone who can tolerate my vulgarities, spitting, burping, crapping No, i cant stand vulgarities, or spitting. Burping (maybe). crapping, definately!

- i wan someone who i can crap ard with, n have serious talks with Dont we all do?!?

- i wan someone who will give me a kiss on my forehead when they wake up next to me Thats provided i DO get up of bed..

- i wan someone who doesn't think tt sitting on a bike = messy hair, bad complexion STOP giving me the kuku 1/2 head helm and i'd not complain!

- i wan someone who gives me sensual, passionate love making, n not just a hole for me to poke Yes yes, i will. Just not with u..

- i wan someone who will like my friends, cos william only keep great friends n chucks the rest Your friends are great! Close ones like Yang and Nai i mean. not the other ah-li-ah-lu ones. then again, i dun know them! A Guy's friends are a gr8 reflection of the GUY himself... :)

- i wan someone who won't mind i m holding on to a debit card, as opposed to platnium Credits arent good.. dont u have to pay them sooner or later. i believe in COLD HARD CASH...

- i wan someone who plays hard and works hard I work hard, i play hard. However, i still do play while i work! hahaha

- i wan someone like my mum No idea how someone's mum is like, but i wld want someone like My dad!

- i wan someone who will allow me to cook with them, do housechores with them I would love to share such Burden with SOMEONE willing!

- i wan someone who will stand on my side, even if i was the worst scum of mother earth Id never ever have a scum as a bf. Wont even start! hah

- i dun need a pretty lady, presentable will do Sorry! i'm both! *bleah* kiddiN!

- i dun need a 34C, more than handful is always a waste Dont have much to spare

- i dun need size 24 waists, i like abit meat to hug Lots of love handles. Donation, anyone?

- i wan a girl who noes tt sending her bk is a favour, not a responsibility, not including late at nite Thats FOR SURE! i always make it a point to say Thank You and mean it!

- i wan someone to cook for me on tues, thurs, sat. i will do the cookin on mon, wed, fri, sun Id be grateful if a guy CAN cook... i'd gladly do the dishes.

- i wan someone who's systematic, and not just anyhow Sorry, val's messy.. but she gets work done!! :P

- i wan someone who can force me to slp early when i have something impt on the next day How bout someone who tempts u to go to bed!? well.. maybe not u dude..

- i dun wan someone to just put on their clothes ASAP after love making session, it's rude I love nudity. Really. Just not with u.

- i dun wan a hardcore christian, sorry I aint. Just christian Inclinations.

- i dun wan ang mohs or china gals val= singaporlian..

- i dun mind if ur clumsy Yes i am...

- i dun mind if ur forgetful Fine!! i am!! Right prisc!? :(

- i wan someone who's sensitive Too sensitive at times..

- i wan someone who loves animals as much as i do Val wants a puppy + Kitten!!

- i wan someone who will respect my parents Only if u respect mine.

- i wan someone who doesnt get drunk after a mug of beer Not for sure!

- i wan someone i can enjoy going on holidays with Holiday!! YAY!!! Where shalll we go "darrrrling!?"

- i wan a lover, and a best friend For sure... ask eric!

- i dun wan a cheena lian, nor do i wan an everyday eat potato lady Im a cheena potato. how does that sound?

- i wan someone who looks cool n tough on the outside, but as soft as candy floss in the inside Hmmm.... What do u think i am?? hush hush. i shalln't divulge.

- i dun wan someone tt nai fancies Does nai fancy me?? hahahhaa

- i wan someone who's intellectual, spontaneous, n not a slow retarded sexy bimbo No boobs to be a bimb. but i DO wana be Sexy + intellectual and spontaneous. :)

- i wan someone wild, yet quiet Val's wild. Quiet when she wants to. (or feels weird, or feels akward, or feels like killin u)

- i wan someone to give me a good shag when i need one How bout givin me one when i NEED one!? not the other way round?

- i wan someone adventurious, n not a couch potato any takers? I'm adventurous.. AND a couch potato. any takers!?!?

Ok!! Now that i'm done "Countering" william's post........ ive came to a few conclusions.

1. val's quite a good catch!!!
2. William loves fantasizing
3. William so does not turn val on.
4. Val pisses william off so much by "citing" him. And commenting.
5. Alot of readers wld b sayin "yeah rite val..." are u sure!?!?
6. those who read both our blogs constantly wld b sayin "WAY TO GO VAL!"
asdf
hahhaa.. and by the way. u smoke!!! u're a bloody chimney!. out out out!!! REDS sumore! tmd. Im "scent-sual". cant stand anything that stinks.. sorry dude. hahaha

enough for now... i've reali gota slp!

William's either laughing his head off now, Or wondering if he shld go after val. Dont think about it dude. U're rejected! wahhahahahahahhahaha..

What an ego val!!! what an ego!!! :P

*kiddin lar dude* no offence k?? Mugg hard!!
1 more paper to go.

You Are A: Puppy!

Beloved by all, puppies are energetic, playful, and loving. Your outgoing and friendly nature is part of what makes you a puppy. Known for their loyalty, puppies make great pets for young and old alike. And an innocent puppy face can melt anyone's heart!

You were almost a: Duckling or a Monkey
You are least like a: Turtle or a Bear CubWhat Cute Animal Are You?

Val just got home. She just went for a show, and she's feelin absolutely happy today. Grinz... Ok, *snaps* time to wake up! and prepare for some serious studyin. why the hell am i behaving as if there's NO MORE papers to go!?!?

Ok, bed time... Feeling Contented now... *happy sigh* oh.. and fuLL as well!!! hahaha bah kut teh! my fave! juz came up with a wish list and a WISH LIST FOR FOOD!!! im so gonna post it after exams! :)

i wont cry.. i just wont!

Everyone moves on, some faster, some slower, some never.

Those who dont move on are losers.

Well, he didnt ask about me, he didnt even give a damn. Not even a word of concer like, "how's val", or "have u met up with val". or something of the sort. No, Nothing. Zilch.

Im out of ppls life too soon. so what the hell is my significance to ppl?

We maybe close like shit, and the next moment, everything changes, and its as if nothing happened, and we never spoke to each other, never shared the special glances, nothing. We behave as if we meant nothing to each other, and everything was just a facade. So what's changed? what happened? i dont wish to probe. My pride doesnt allow me to.

and YOU, u've moved on, look where u left me!? here, in my shit hole. I dont want u back, u killed your heart so quickly. and I'd just have to blame myself for not being able to shove u out that quickly. For one, i'm not as heartless, id never be able to do it.

Quit asking if i'd be back with him, if he asks. Firstly, he wont. Second, i wont. Thirdly. Life cant always be phrased as a hypothetical question.

Damn it. Not even a lil concern!? courtesous, Friendly concern? Damn u asshole(s).. Go ahead, go put on a greeaattt show. U know where it'll get u. Stay the way u want. I cant be bothered. (yeah rite).

I said i wont cry. The day i told key it's over, it IS over. Promised i wont shed another tear for u. I havent. i wont. Always thought it's better to bawl it all out. Suffer the aftermath of puffy eyes. Now, im starting to think otherwise. Save the tears. Dont shed it for someone who's not worth it.

I do regret many things in life, not doing this, doin too much of this and that... Guess now, i'd just do whatever i wana do. Id be nice to anyone i feel like, and do sweet things for ppl i care for, and wanna make happy! and like Seng said, Go with the FLOW! I might as well, since ive got nothing to lose. Sometimes, with no promises made, i feel more "carefree". i dont feel so tied down. Yet, at the same time, i wana do things to show my concern, and make the other party happy.

Be open, and give any one a lil chance they deserve.Right!?
Hah. Unconditional love. I thought u gave that to me. So... its disappeared within ..... XXX days? hmm Situational love id say. Gone with afew juggs of beer! .. :)

Well... who am i to critisize. My feelings for u are gone too. im lookin forward, and movin on dude. Adios! The nxt time we meet, wld be when i look back, and laugh at how stupid i was to cry and even be bothered. It'll be when u mean nothing to me at all.

Wonder who am i referin to in this post.. Hmmm...

HalloweenTP!

oHhh fuggggittt!!!!!

was on my way from home to West Coast mac, and was drivng as per norm.
Got back frm work, took dads car, and headed off.. was just mentioning that there are usually TPs around the jalan ahmad ibrahim area... blah blah blah,

and as i was just mentioning AGAIN, that i was travelling at 120, and that i shld slow dwn, James noticed that there are TPs at the side.. i slowed dwn significantly BUT, they caught me...

pulled over at the chevron markings at clementi ave 2 while the TP got out of his bike.

"Good evening mdm"
"our speed laser detected your vehicle going at 115KM/HR for XXKm."
"pass me ur IC and Driving license"
"It would be 6 points.. blah blah blah..."

So! on the 11th NOvember, val ended up with 6demerit points, a traumatizing experience, supposedly $150 poorer, and a BADddd mood..

Im like super lack of cash tis mth, and if i were to pay the 150 thats the end of vaL. Apparently mr J feels guilty. for some warped reasoning which i cant seem to comprehend. Thanks for offerin to help pay... thanks...realli realli thankful.

val's off 2 bed. dozing off...
more tmr! nitez peeps