Wake up QUITTER!

My weekend felt weirdly Fulfilling. Had Boonlay Nasi lemak for dinner, and headed to Jurong point for Harry Potter at 0040hrs. Thats bout it. Yet, it felt really really really satisfying. No doubt dinner + movie companion consists of a weird mix of Greg Myself and James, it still felt very very nice. =) WERID I KNOW.. val hates Jurong point. it's a market place to her.. a place where i head for lunch, get last min stuff etc. Guess its just a feeling of spending a WEEKEND with someone you love. a weeknight. After a tiresome/bothersome week of work, a weekend where both parties are feeling lighthearted and carefree, just getting to gether.. vaL feels contented. =)

Not in the best of moods now. No idea what's wrong man, Failed 2 quizes badly at work today, and got fugged up calls. Sometimes, i've got no idea why the hell am i even working, i can just get $$ frm my parents like what my bro's doing now. to hell with work, i'm a STUDENT, i'm STUDYING.... i dont need to pay for my bills, expenses, clothes, my parents will jolly well take care of em.. Feel like juz throwing the letter at times. It sucks having stupid ppl stepping on ur tail, doing stupid things like quizzes which i hate so very much. i hate quizzes, tests, exams, spot checks, anything quantifying. My abilities arent quantifiable. Guess its just a realistic way of measurement, and i failed it. damn. Here's what they taught me.. "It may be your 100001th call, but it's the customer's 1st." I make sure i've got that in mind b4 i answer any call. Professionalism u call that? job ethics i suppose. im taking your $$, i jolly well do my job and make sure i meet ur expectations.

I WISH

1. I had rich parents who'd buy me cars houses and everything i want
2. I had a rich husband who'd continue buying me cars houses and everything i want
3. I wish i had children who'd dote on me and buy me EVERYTHIHG i want
4. damn it. Forget the top 3, i just want to earn enough to buy myself anything and everything i want! on top of that. i wana make sure i can get my PARENTS the things they want, make my husband happy, and children contented.

Sorry. I have none of such abilities. For now, im just so sick and tired of work, that i wish to throw the letter. Damn it. speak of low morale and lack of motivation.. argh. Val's no longer a quitter. if it were the old me, i'd have left long ago. guess i cant leave now. i've got Responsibilities.. a responsibility to myself. I need this job. Damn val. whack urself and stop ur bloody ideas bout quitting n all. How the hell are u gonna even FEED yourself. To hell with independence. I shld just be every other stupid bimb. mix arnd with more trashy FE-male whom william can introduce me to, and just be...... trashy! LEECH on guys.. look towards $$$ fast cars and all.

So why in the world is val not LEECHING!?!?! why in the world does she prefer takin the MRT and Bus in comparison to a cab!? she wasnt brought up this way. she's conditioned to behave this way. Show me the $$ show me the $$ show me the $$!!! SLAP ME QUICK! make me snap out of this quit mode!

Results are out on the 7th... Jame's leavin on the 23rd, pay's in on the 26th.. blah blah blah. i'm sick of this boring life.... but that's life! hah. WAKE UP VAL!