Eric n my LIKES

YES i'm attached, YES i do love my boyfriend, NO i aint in some secret fantasy, and NO i aint looking for someone else.

HOWEVER just like how every guy their own likes n prefrences in girls irregardless whether he's attached or not, 18 28 or 80, flirtations or unflirtatious, wanks himself does it with his girlfriend or his neighbour's dog (i'm kidding). Be it the cover of FHM, this girl nxt door looking actress, big boobed pornstar, talented female singer, mature looking lady, office woman in office wear, Rui en looking singer, TeH sounding fiona xie, YES.. guys do have their favourites.
(p/s: Rui en n Fiona contributed by Geoff)

I have my LIKES too!!

IN ORDER OF PREFERENCE


Daniel Wu
Edison Chen
Shawn Yue

was tempted to post their biblio.. however.. most of u wld prolly close your IE. To cut things short. I think i've generalized my liking for guys.

Louis Koo's a big no no for me, Ang MoHs are a bigger NO. Yes, CHINESE. i think i like the "Bad boy" look (Yes, cliche i know..), sharper nose with distinct nose bridge, not too tanned. Preferably those who LOOK unapproachable, dont really smile. yeah.. and those who look a little boyish! !!

half way through this blog, i juz realized... I was describing ERIC!!!!!!!!!! He does look like a typical bo tak chek (dont study) baaaad boy, his nose is considered sharp as compared to flat asian nose. he aint tanned (maybe white, but much tanner now), he doesnt look approchable at all (i know cuz i approached him first). He doesnt really smile(He's a grumpy Dick), and he DOES look a little boyish.... gosh.. now i know why...

Not bad, i put my LIKES into action... hmm. when i've got a decent looking photo of him, i'd Blog it.. (do i hear a big NO!!! frm him somewhere?) hmm. Thankfully, i aint got a camera, and i aint obsessed with taking pix.

Darling, know u dont quite look like the above 3 guys tho u claim u do and i pretend to agree u do.. U do have have the basic "LOOK" requirement, and even if u dont, it's too late to ditch u! I LOVE U!!!!

because.. u are u...

b4 skool starts

Just packed the unused table in my room. Soon, it would be filled with books, notes, stationeries, and with my laptop on as usual. The last time i sat in on my desk with studies related agenda was on 31st march, the day before my last paper.. Exactly 3 months from today. Guess life in SIM's gonna be much different from poly days, tho it's right beside Ngee ann, and off hand, i can name at least 20 ppl from ngee ann in my SIM "class". No more tutorials to make up for skipped lectures, no more bugging for tips and whats nots.

Hence resulting in my renewed resolution to study hard! ahem. tho this resolution is made at every single start of the semester. THIS TIME ITS GOING TO BE DIFFERENT! yes indeed. ive said that before too. *smacks head*. Words are nothing, i need action! soooooo.. i'm gonna start by buying books! (like it's gonna be much of a difference).. AND, i WILL read them!! becuz its going to come from my hard earned $$$. Thats the difference!

car accident + work's a bitch

had my 1st Minor car accident.. 26th July.. argh..
accidents are bound 2 happen. right!!??
sigh. lets just hope the nxt one would be far far far far faRrr frm now
aint exactly my fault.. shallnt find excuses for it either.

elaborate more nxt time.. when i aint that tired..
oh.. and work's a bitch..
feel exhausted from it. seem 2 reach a saturation point,
where i'm past the peak of my learning curve.
Even if i do learn, i dont perform,
i dont make use of what i learn.
The executing part sux..

gosh.. what if i cant make it through..
what if live calls are worst and.. and..
i dont make it!?!?
Gotta buck up!!!!!

i must.

MIA + BIASED

been MIA for a few days.. aint online, aint blogging.. i've been WATCHING DVD!! it's like a marathon for me. partial one, since i've gotta work at nite. to make things worst, it's 70episodes and i'm no where near finishing!!..

to make things worst, the ONLY dvd player i've got at home is monopolized by my brother. It's for his sole personal use in his dungeon.. his pathetic sister me on the other hand has got a skinny good for nothing laptop who aparently doesnt have the capablilties to play dvds. no idea why.. some dvd decoder shit.

Here's what im gona do..
1) ask my brother nicely to swap the player
2) Bribe him! (which wont work definately because he's much richer
3) THREATEN HIM! (u nuts!? with what..??)
4) secretly "export" it out (i cant figure out the wires)
5) the ultimatum would be to make a BIG FUSS OUT OF NOTHING saying that my parents are biased etc.. and make them buy me another one!!!!! YEAH!! that'll work!!!

speaking bout biasness.. dad n mum went shopping ytd in town! wow.. i thought they were gonna buy stuff for themselves.. but i came home onli to see 2 bags of clothes on my bro's bedtop. in addition to the 2 OP teeshirts they bought the day b4. so there was a total of 2 pants, 2 shirts and 2 teeshirts!? amounting to about.... hmm hundred odd!! WAH! i knew there prolly wasnt anything for me, but i checked my room anyway. yeah.. nothing but mess.

Know i'm too old for these "Daddy mummy u BIASED!" shit.. but yea.. they aparently are! they'd definately rebut saying things like,
u drive the car (yeah cuz my bro doesnt have a license),
u have so mani clothes (yeah, i paied for most of them),
u're working (and earning peanuts for now),
your bro has no clothes (and who said i've got enough),
we pay for other stuff (like!? k fine, if they were to say things like facial care etc, and go dig up the 20 year financial books.. so be it.)

so i'd juz keep my mouth shut! sigh... bloody hell. They could have just bought me some little THING (note the singularity)..

"its becuz i'm FE-male.. its becuz i'm in POLY!!! it's becuz i havent been staying home!! it's becuz.... " hahaa.. i'm juzkididn.. haha.. they try to be as fair as they can all these years... as ive said... TRY... when u TRY, doesnt mean u really are.. but what matter's is tt u try..

OK!! done with downloading the DVD decoder 30day trial!

My Doggie ruskie

Just brought in the clothes. its raining heavily now.. I love the rain. Did i ever mention that? know it stinks when we're all dressed up and YET caught in the rain.

I remember those times when i was clad in my pink raincoat, and my maid brought my brother and i to the playground because we insisted on going down despite the drizzle. it feels simply wonderful to hear the "pitter patter" on your skin.. your face.. your body.. Thunderstorms are one of those times where i stand in awe.. at the wonderous powers of the creator of this earth. None will ever surpass this enourmous power.. ever.

However.. whenever the thunderstorm strikes, i feel a sense of guilt.. i feel indebted. because Somewhere out there, he just might be walking around, all alone. Somewhere out there, they might not be treating him right. or is he already dead? He'd b 8 this year. My intellegent little pup who's memory i hold so dear..

For as long as i live, Whenever it rains, i'd feel a heart wrenching sense of lost. It was my fault that he got lost. it was my fault that i chose to study for my chinese o lev instead of searching frantically for him.

He would howl and bark to get attention of my mum whenever it rained. So that she'd bring the clothes in. (and bring him in as well).. For that reason, whenever i hear the sound of thunder, and stand at my balcony feeling the little drizzle that breezes pass me, i'd think about him. I do not deny that it does make me a little teary at times esp times as such where the memories of him just comes flooding back. Any pet owner would understand how much his or her pet mean to her. Esp when the pet provided a constant listening ear and a source of happiness in your growing up years... esp when the pet's gone..

I thought he'd come back on his own like he usually does. But i thought wrong. I'm so sorry Ruskie i know i should have, but i didnt. If i knew you would leave me that soon, i'd have let u pee-d every where without spanking you with the newspaper. I'd have let u into my air con room, I'd have shared my chicken with you so you wont whine and sulk.. i'd even buy you your favourite rainbow ice cream more often.. Most importantly.. i'd have treated you like you were so very precious... i should never have taken you forgranted.

I'm sorry.. You'd forever be the little puppy i raised..
(gosh.. what a sad entry.. and what's with my tearing.. )

LinKs

not quite done with the links... so bear with it..

Cant wait for tonight. can feeeeelll the urge to drive straight down to funan.

Wakeboarding take 2

"Wakeboarding Take 2"
it's my second attempt at it, and thank goodness i didnt make a fool of myself. There's this thing about ppl not trying it, and thinking it's really simple. uh-uh... in anycase, before the "know-it-all" comments are unleashed, do try the muscle straining sport. i've got comments like:

"Just let the boat pull you.."--yea right.
"U guys pro huh?!"--on our 2nd attempt??**puzzled**
"eh eh eh!! have ramp to let u fly or not"--yes, it IS that bad.

More pix as i've promised. took me some time to edit, so it wont take too much loading time on ur pc, and it looks shorter, neater and niCer! :) cutting pasting and adding black streaks to protect identity's tough work... so even if u know who's in the pic, pls conceal the laughter ya. *evil laughter*


here's how we all look with the before we start out. looking almost confident and almost sure we'd make it.. same board, same rope, same lifevest. different pose tho :S for those who dont already know, that's the starting pose before the boat moves, before you get to stand up, and before u fall face down.

BLOOPERS


top left, we've wat we call a "sexy" butt. god knows why he/she wore trunks.. (look, i'm tryin not to let u guys figure out who he/she is alrite!.. haha)*smacks head*... he wasnt supposed to wakeboard.. but guess he felt really tempted. and that explains the lack of boardshorts.

top right, we've got a new stunt aquired in wakeboarding history. its what we call "squat boarding" where the wakeboarder doesnt need to stand, and YET is able to move along at a fast speed!

bottom left, (need i say more) is where we see just the tip of the head, and nothing more.. imagine ur face plonking into an oil streak!?? *eugh* NOT, very nice.

lastly, bottom right, we've got a cute cuddly dolphin wriggling her way out of the boat!

acting PRO


i practically picked the nicest shots out of the 123pix we've taken! pheW. dont we all look alike with red-ish shorts, same binding, board and vest!?!?!? there's prisc keeping her CG lowwww, myself with my legs looking too long, n jiaen doin her 1 hand stunt!


Beauty and the DOG contest
Now, this competition features 3 (self proclaimed) "BEAU-ties" (as in aun-tieS)..
Contestant 1: dog n VaL. Looking wayyy too sleepy.
Contestant 2: dog n PRISC. Smiling sweetly, but the dog's obviously not interested in u gUrL!
Contestant 3: dog n Meryl. Dog's ponderin bout smthing.. u're givin a big smile.. and....... the winner is...

CONTESTANT NUMBER 3!!!! CONGRATULaTIONS!!!
and the dog claim's his prize!... and starts humping her leg.. (note the puny redish.. thing?? FINE, it's a dick! a doggie dick!) and meryl isnt moving anywhere... u've got the "doggy" scent larhz. haha..


AND, a nice group pic of the day ;)


(L-R):vern, prisc, val, meryl, vivian

ooOohhh the aftermath's terrible. wakeboarding was 2days back.. and i STILL AM aching n walking like a pregnant woman. cuts on my fingers hurt too. turning in bed has also became a huggee chore..

wakeboarding tmr! + M1pix + secskool bbq pix

in a few hrs, i'd b WaKEBOaRDING!!! wooHooOooOO!! check out more hilarious pix taken on my prev wakeboarding experience. Hope it doesnt rain tomorrow. Because according to the weather forecast on yahoo, it's gona b THUNDERSTORM!!! oh no... please please PLEASE do NOTTT rain.. argh..

Ever Wondered how's it like at my work place!?? here's how its like!

Jiaen n myself wearng the earphone/mouthpiece that makes our hair flat. lucky for her, she's got the "kali-poK" hairstyle these days..

id have gladly posted more pix if it wasnt for the fact that i look so god damn bad in photos these days. Eye bags seems puffy and all. argh. Speakin of pix, here are some shots i took at my sec skool class gathering!

that's MOST of us.. attendence was like... 25/40 pax? bout there. cant rem.. +/- .. bout there. Spot a few familiar faces?? other than mine of cuz.. starting frm top left in a anti clockwise manner we've got

(marvin boonkeong chengyi jiemin beng shicheng kevin myself (someone) eussoff kyawlin samuel *star*huixin and charmaine irwani asyqin jolin)

Here's another pic. just FYI, the muscular malay guy at the back won the body building competition this yr!!! for the weight range XX (forgot).. wow.. he's full of... MUSCLES?? he started training since god knows when.. when we were in secondary school, he kept askin ppl to punch him in the arm... this guy's good for venting anger.. He never feels the pain of my punches aniway! haha.. the guy in the cap? He's prolly the best male friend i've got in secondary school. all 4 years! wow... we've come a long way.. tho we no long keep in contact that often, there are certain memories that i'd treasure always. and NO, i did not have any scandaleous affair with him back then. Tho i was more often than not the "bridge" between him and his "to-be" girlfriend.

Recieved the letter frm SIM at last. man... it sux big time. more bout it tmr.. time for bed.. or i'd have a helluva time tmr.

Broke +more names

oh. i'm officially broke. not like it's anything to be proud of. but YES, i AM broke. I havent been doin heavy shopping, however... the $$'s all gone!!! was kinda wonderin where it all went, and it struck me that i've been spending alot on little "nothings". Say for example meals, i spent it on dinner supper and snacks, perhaps even lunch at times. and shimin's bday cost a bomb, and... where else!!?? gosh. it really isnt justifiable. after wakeboarding on wed, im back to thrift mode!

Cant possibly cancle wakeboarding now can i? not when i've already booked it frm 12 to 3, and promised the 3 other ladies that we'd have a smashin time on wed! we're all lookin forward to it.. (that includes me) so i'd scrimp n save after wed.

Met up with eric for a short while today. Not too long, but really enough, but if that's all we can manage, i'd gladly accept it!! and as expected, my mood's betta already!.. i'm all geared up and set for the week ahead! tho life isnt as exciting as it use to be. Maybe some things are just about getting used to. I aint highly adaptable.. and the transition is no doubt tough on my part (our part) but it's getting better and easier as each week passes..

oh!! think i've FInALLY got myself a greeting name, since plain ol "valerie/vaL"'s already taken up... i'm gona by called 'Rae'. Pronounced as "RA-Y".. but the female version?? hahaha.. it's monosyllabic, so multiply it by 100calls a day it's still 100syllabus.. it sounds a little jap? does it? er.. nevermind.. my colleague sorta gave me such inspiration.. and for once jiaen had no lousy/dirty comments bout name i've shortlisted. most ppl who hear it goes "hmm" and not "uh-uH"... well i wont want customers calling in and saying "HUH!!?? WHAT?!?? your name again!?!?!"

THE NAME (finding) GAME
ok, it goes like "welcome to XXX this is _______________
scene 1: this is Saramimariaranambaguptandra speaking.. (try pronouncing it??)
scene 2: this is gina speaking (jiaen says it sounds like vagina*shakes head*)
scene 3: this is steph speaking (what? stab? stab what?")
scene 4: this is zara speaking (are u malaY? or are u a poser?")
scene 5: this is belle speaking (what bell? ting tong bell ah?-> contribution by jiaen again)
scene 6: this is ethyl speakin (ethyl like methyl? the chemical? and someone said tiu what tiu?)
scene 7: this is charlotte speaking (char-loh-tee??)
scene 8: this is dawn speaking (everyone ends up sayin they dont like this name, and they dislike some one with this name..) i personally qutie like it tho. but it's rejected by the masses.

i assure u that the list above is NON-exhausive.. sigh. a fictitions name takes that long to settle upon, lets not metion even talk about naming a child.. Guess next time i'm gona think of my son/daughter's name wayyyy before i embarking on the sex fulfilling journey of "creating" one. Seems like its harder to choose a name than it is to concieve these days! hahaha.. nope. im not anywhere near concieving. if thats what's goin tru ur mind now. *winkz*

bedtime..

Shimin bday + fuckin pissed with myself

as usual.. its an EaRLY post. 4.19am.

Went for Shimin's bday celebration at Goodwood park hotel. HaPPy BiRthdaY buddy!!! but u prolly aint seein this. food was So-So. nothing fantastic, for those who even have the intention of heading down for buffet dinner, think twice. oh, and their service suck too! They cant get any dumber when they brought out the bday cake in its box and ask if we want to serve it! like huLLO!! the birthday girl's right heRe... and in what way is it gonna be a suprise now!?? dumb ass.

No idea why we headed down to mdm wong. Was supposed to be chillin at sum pub? frm 9 of us, down to 5, and in 2 cars.. so it's PartaE time people!!!.. Thinking back, its almost a year since i've clubbed. Glad i havent lost my clubbin "touch" **winks**.. however, i've lost the drinking element tho! heh.. details, shallnt elaborate.. i'd just say that i had fun dancing the whole way through. hyper active! could have danced longer, if it wasnt for the rest of em feelin way too tired.

nxt was supper at hv, and i'm Home!! legs are aching. No way i'm goin trekking with vivian an the rest tml. i wont get up. i'd prolly be the mosquito's main source of food. that's all.

i'm feeling down now... it's the "missing-eric-syndrome".. maybe it isnt the number of days we meet, maybe it isnt the amount of time we spent to gether. maybe it isnt the amount we communicate these days. maybe it isnt the bad vibes that i've got. maybe maybe.. then what is it? why am i feeing upset and moody!?. raHhh.. i juz know that all these bad vibes would go away when i get to see him on monday.. will monday come sooner?? will i fuckin stop being so paranoid bout the "i-miss-you-but-our-work-clash-i'm-afraid-we'd-drift-appart-over-time" issue!!?? i shld just go to bed like NOW NOW NOW... but im waiting for him to come back frm msia. maybe just a little chat? it does wonders at times... if i dont fuckin blame myself for the moodiness and "dull" sounding voice, who should i blame... i dont wana sound tis way.. but would i rather act?? bloody pissed off with myself now. i'm ranting, and i dont know why. so i should just shut the fuck up and hope and pray for the best, and stop bein so fuckin pissed with myself.

i cant sleep.. no.. i Wont sleep!

quick, make a guess, what the hell am i doin here at 8.10 am!?! nope. i aint in the midst of dream typing, neither am i up for a pee break. i havent slept.

Work was interestingly monotonous and boring for a change. Followed by supper with rod, leo, lianjin, wenkang, and tis guy named ming ming or smthin. cant seem to rem his name :S. Dont ask me how i ended up with them. my hungry stomach simply led me there... Gave rod a call due to his ambigiuous msg, and since he's heading out for supper, i might as well JOIN them!! haha..

Down to Changi village we went, all the way from booOooonnn LEH (boonlay). Long and nerve killing ride. Poor car of his simply couldnt take the weight. moved like a tortise. took 30?40mins? no thx to the elephantSSS in it. I'd say that the food was norm, and that there are better Food in the west!! so why in the world are we there!!?? for the trasvesites i guess. There's one that looks like a KoReaN... oOh la Lahh.. and another one that walked to the toilet ina Bra! right.. talk about feeling inferior. heh..

my sleeping time's dragging from late to later to early and EARLIER, if u get what i mean.. (1am, 3am, 5am, and now 8am!??) phew.. just 10more mins to go!! 10 more mins before i ring up big fat lazy pig eric! :) u reading this dear? yeah u mr. commando!! ooPs.. (k, know u'd curse me for sayin tt u'd get in there) juz teasin man.. no hard feelings huh.

Aint entirely waiting up to call him. Meanwhile i'm STILL figuring a newer nicer self made skin, i'm quite an idiot with htmls n stuff... but i'm TRYINGGGG with no guidance n professional help! heh.. might take some time... but i'm enjoying it, and i can SEE the progress! **pats myself on the back**.. maybe one day i'd be a professional skin maker? who knowS man!! heh.. given my current financial status, i'd charge. FOR SURE!

W/O my gate key..

Breakfast tasted not too bad. (fortunately). The unfortunate event however, occured when i was at my door step. Dont ask me why, but the gate key wasnt with me, and my gate was locked. no thx to my brother. an extra pair of keys were beside the door, but my hands (no doubt relatively long) simply couldnt reach those keys! I will NOT wait outside till my bro comes back, and i will NOT take a cab down!!... i cleverly took a broom, shoved it in, shake/dig/brush/wriggle/beat/dirty the wall, and THaNK goodness, the key plOnked down, and i was able to get into my home. imagine staring at your empty house through the locked gates. the wrong side of the gate i mean.

havin some weird feelings bout work. i'm starting to wonder if i can perform and cope with it. information overload.. unfamiliar systems.. gosh. just hope id survive. speaking of which, i've gotta find a new "name" for myself, since the name "VALERIE"'s already taken up. ideas? it ranges frm steph to dawn to zen to god knows what.

Prisy's back.. for those who dont know. not Exactly back, but msia's close enough. at least we're all at GMT+0800 now! heh. missed ya prisc. glad tt you're finally back...

WAKEBOARDING!!! woOohOoo!! wed's wakeboarding's confirmed!!! that's unless we dont get a boat. Jiaen, Myself, Prisc n vivian. seems like not too long ago was my FIRST attmpt at wakeboarding.. am so lookin foreward to the 2nd try.. more pix soon. i hope.

For now, sKin's gonna be left as such. gonna try and make a betta one while i've still got the time! dont get your hopes too high tho!!

First official post?

YuP, this IS my first official post. Skin's not up, everything looks weird and foreign. Guess i really need 2 get a Pretty skin to suit this new blog of mine.

it's almost 5am, and i'm STILL UP! quite a night owl, no thx to the nature of my job. ok, i wont blame the job since it ends at 12am. However, allt he supper and net surfing, and late wake up hrs makes sleeping impossible at 2am. argh.. so i'd wake up at 4? and wld be unable 2 sleep at nite. what a vicious cycle.

however, tonight's different. I aint well known as a cook, but im keeping my fingers crossed that i'd b able 2 whip out a delicious bfast tml morning. There's gonna be Pancakes with honey and butter, scrambled eggs, and toast and orange juice. i hope. hahaha.. hope it all turns out just right. hope it gets delivered to eric's place in time... i hope nothing gets burnt and my kitchen would still be in 1 piece. i hope i'd b able to stay awake... *yawnz*..

i shallnt elaborate how celin n i went "shopping" for groceries and house hold stuff at MUSTAFAS at what..? 1am? 2? as if 1 whole evening of walking around orchard aint enough.. we had to carry the "shopping" through the nite. oh, and for records, i didnt get lost on the roads! we went straight frm HV to mustafas. no Uturn, no detour, no calling SOS. heh.. thankyou alex for ur precise directions! :)

blog more soon. for now, i'd go find something else to do..

test post

aHem.. "testing testing.. 12trieeeeeee"