Motivated to be a Babe!

Juz got back from the gym with ST.
Everyone thought i was nuts as i had to wait till 12, and head to the gym!!
Ate like nobody's business at work! hahaa
there was lots of food stuff frm thailand, bah kua, mooNcake..etc..

as i speak of thailand,
i still feel a pang of... *how shld i put it!?*
"tidal emotions"!

Did the tredmill and attempted 2 rid of my Flabby triceps......
Exhausted. Maybe, i'd b able to slp well, w/o nightmares tis time.
on the side note, i'm gona be "disciplined to be a babe"! *hmph*

Unorg post, i know.

As i was driving home, saw tis dog ran accross the road.
I immediately switched 3 lates,
to see if it was ruskie... (FYI, my pet dog tt neva came home)..
Well, it isnt.. sigh...

Then i saw 2 bikes, 1 sports bike, 1 phantom, the phantom had a pillion.
Thought it was eric, with ken, and ivan behind.
Well, it isnt either.
What wld they be doin in jurong aniway.

Yeah.. what wld he b doin here...
i aint with him animore..
sighh...

I'd lead a good life, but i still miss him.
was told not to write such sad stuff animore...

then again, I FEEL UNHAPPY WAT!! DUdE! wat u expect me 2 post!?
hahahaa..
These days however, such feelings comes in pangs.
Esp when i see some things, say somethings or do somethings.
man.. this sux.

gona get 2 bed.
Pls stay in my memory... not my mind....
get out of my head!!! but u may not get out of my heart..
In time to come, we wont love..
But we once loved...
When will the time come??
guess it's till the day i dont shed tears at nite..

I never liked wearing watches, but he bought one for me for our 1st yr.
Now, id wear it, as it's the closest thing i've got.
Looking at it makes me remember... ... YOU...

when i read other's blogs, or see other couples..
id juz realize i dont have him animore.
those sweet stuff, lovey dovey, or some small arguments,
sweet suprises...
I aint entittled to them animore.

oh shuddit val!
stop sobbing.
now get to bed!

Nite b4 Presentation. i mean Day

dont always do this,
but

KNN

it's 5.30am in the Freggin MoRning,

worked the nite away,

gotta get to school by 1030am,

present in the afternoon,

and work again in the evening.

bloOOody F*ckin *toot TooT TooOOOOttt*

Forgive me.

i'm bored as i'm still waiting.

gosh.. u do it so slowly... argh..

i'm tired even before i started

i aint feeling physically well.

Gum feels swollen.

A sure sign of heatiness a.k.a Lack of slp

Eyes are closing.

SoBz.. the rest of u r slping....... =(

not as if stayin up wld hlp. heh.

raHhhhzzz..

gona lie on the table.. n take a quick shut eye while i wait the nxt million "donkey years" for the nxt 3 qns... knn.. kn kn knnnnn.... argh..

7days..

Its been a week,
Hell long time if u ask me.
The random tears, Ocassional spacing out, Weird Laughter, Lonliness...
Just part n parcle of a break up?
At least i know i'm not alone. He's feeling it too..

Last night was the worst amongst the whole week.
Finally The only moment where i was alone,
(was when i was in the showers.)
I burst out in tears..
It was the only time when no one was arnd.
its ALREADY a week??.. how long more will that last?

As i lay wide awake in bed,
Pillow soaked with tears,
I msged him.
It wasnt the only msg i typed to him in the past week.
However, it was the only one that got sent.
I'd type long msgs, only to find myself deleting them..
This time round, i sent it out...
I could only manage a goodnight msg.

USELESS!! argh..

He felt my hurt nevertheless.
Told him it was a week, n just a plain goodnite..
He felt it.. replied a long msg, (which he usually wont)
We use to had this thing,
where we just KNEW how each other felt.
As usual.. he felt it this time.
We had this connection.
Now that we arent together, i wish this connection wld go away.
Only thing it brings now.. is Unwanted Unhappiness.

Perhaps thats why sometimes i just feel this pang of sadness
rush of tears...
Wherever he is.. Maybe he's feelin that way..

A friend told me to give it one more shot.
I know i cant.
I shouldnt.
He doesnt want to anyway.
The future's............. there's no future. *i'm denying it*
I drifted off to bed.......

Got up in early morning,
only to realize that i was part of an equally awful dream.
I dreamt of him, n myself.
A dream of parting.. A dream of him rejecting me,
pushing me furthur n furthur away..
EVEN IN MY DREAM!!!
i'm UNABLE to escape from the harsh reality.

GIVE me a moment of serenity!!!
i dont require pure joy n happiness
I just want a moment of PEACE,
where thoughts dont flood my mind on its own..

The only time i do find it,
is when i'm occupied.
Occupied wld i be then!

Unlike other couples...
we seldom tookphotos..
Thats good.
Now when i miss him, there's nothing much that i can refer to



V-day 05.. Myself, My fave Flowers. From my Fave him...

Cant bring myself to post a pic of him.
cant bring myself to think of him.
sigh.

Tonight's gona b a busy night.
Now that's a consolation

one more.....

Xmas party we organized..
Were we went to ikea.. Were we got the drinks..
where prisc was with geoff
where chris was with ivan
where lyd was still in SG

where i was with him...

Someone planned it..

More often than not,
bad happen in a series.
We wont know if its for the better or the worst,
One thing for sure,
Life is that its planned.
Perhaps not "PLANNED".. but Controlled.

By SOMEONE... of higher authority..
If he's got my life planned for me,
then it's in his hands..

I do not deny his existence
Hence I wont fight what he's got installed for me.
If things happen for a reason,
Its happening for a BETTER reason.
Cliche i know, but "all things work together for good"..

Tho its no longer the way i want it to be,
Nor the way it SHOULD be..
I'm gona embrace the moment,
with whatever i've got.
When one door closes another door opens.
That's the way he works..
So, i'm just gonna LIVE LIFE!

If i do not attempt to the best of my capability,
How wld i know how r things gona turn out?

Now who's to say that life sux n things r unbearable!?!?
We havent been through it.
That's what we're here to find out.

With every trial in life,
Every difficulty faced,
Every unhappiness felt....
We're driven to greater heights.

I'm gona scale the heights..
I havent reached my Peak.
i Never will...
Willl you??

butterscotch and Mint.. i still love u mint..thank you..

For a change, here's some sweet updates:

CONGRATS

to miss ELEANOR LIM for getting a new job.. Knew u wanted to get out of that place for a long time. the only nice stuff is prolly the "earth quake"..

GOOD LUCK

and best wishes to PRISCILLA KHOO.. for finding some spark and happiness in her busy lifestyle. No idea if these sparks are there 2 stay.. or they're fireworks.. Simply beautiful for the moment... Irregardless.. Know u feel great now.. so Keep up the good work!!

asfasdfadfs

I recieved this SMS:

"Hey u, take care yah :) if u don't know what to reply it's ok. Just remember there are old friends who'd love to be there for u and do truly care."

asdfadsf

As expected by the sender, I did not reply. I didnt ignore the msg, delete it, or forget to reply. I kept it. Read the msg few times even. That "OLD FRIEND" of mine knows that i wont know what to reply.. hence she thoughtfully mentioned tt i need not reply.. She didnt msg me online. or persist, as she knew i prolly wont wanna talk about it. Thank you so much... My other half.. Ex-other half... We shared great times 2gether. Great blogging times.. Remember the days of www.butterscotchnmint.blogspot.com where i was the butterscotch n she was the mint.

As usual. Things changed, we parted, and did our own stuff. But memories do exist. I've had enough of "old" friends.. "lost" friends.. "misplaced" friendship.. "old" loves... I'm gonna treasure every friendship i've got.

adsfasdf

Iris, eric, ivan, maybe even Ken. They most prolly have the impression that i'm a cynical bitch, not giving a flyin fuck about friendship. They're not entirely wrong in saying that. I have a hard time keeping friends. I do love them, i Just didnt treasure them. Iris, u were right in saying i was selfish. I had my reasoning, and i stood by it. It seemed warped and all weird to all of you, as to why i wasnt sensitive and tactful enough. I didnt think i was selfish back then. Now i do.

adsfasdf

I'd try and treasure everyone that comes my way..

I wana dance..

Complexion. A reflection of health. Mental, Physical, Emotional. Its said that pimply people are not in the best state of health. Similarly, people who smoke usually look wane n sallow, Lack of sleep makes one look "yellow".

I aint in the pinK of health for sure. No thanks to the lack of sleep and late nites. A couple of pimples poppin up, looking really "grey"... Cant find a better word to describe the person i see in the mirror. No amount of concealer/foundation/blusher is gona enhance the situation. Last min salvation. a MASK! that's all im doing for now. Really concerned bout it, but cant be bothered. BaHhhh..

I dont wish to stop work. I like answering calls after calls after calls after calls.... i like having everyone around. everyone's doin their own work. But at least i feel accompanied. Not too lonely. Constant chattering helps a hell lot. be it gettin a great big F frm customers, or hanging on to a call for 10 mins it beats sitting at home, alone.

Lots of ppl sent their well wishes, care, and concern. For that, i really do appreciate it... However, do divert it to the others instead. My other half.. Ex other half. he needs it more than i do. I'd be fine on my own.

Is there just these things you've always wished to do, but never gotten the chance to fulfill it!? I wana do something... which i see myself doing.... I wana do it again.. Prisc said tt i'd never be able to do it.. i'm Old n inflexible... Fine, i'm TWENTEEN.. I wana dance... I do.. I wish i never gave up.. now.. i feel like dancing. Go on those ballet shoes... and dance like how i use to.. Feeling free... working that body...

"I dont have time... "...What a great lie..

Dont let go...

I dont fear being touched..
{Hug me}
I fear being let go..

Seems like the hits on my blog has reached an all time high. Guess.. Dont usually write toO personal stuff on my blog. Now, perhaps it has opened up a lil.. a lil more into the personal realm.

Feel as if im now living in the "lala"-world of my own. Where sitting down and staring into space is a bliss. Time passes in a twinkling of an eye. Sleeping is scary, because i never know what i'd dream of.

Its pointless to get started with projects, i've got no "inspiration" of any form. Somehow... i doubt i'd pull through. Telling ppl i'd be fine, i'm fine, i'm ok, it's alright.... i Do have certain reservations, as to how FINE i'd really be.

Bed time... Gonna snuggle in bed.. wishing everything's fine... Wishing.. and wishing...

Post bkk

One last kiss

One last touch

One last tender moment between us

One last dance

To our first song

While pretending there's nothing wrong

Let's stay here for a while and

Cherish every moment we're in denial

We both knowIt's better if we just let it go

-- One Last (taufik Batisah)

Not as if i'm a great fan of his, but this song's apt. It's been playing in my head for the longest of time. So if anyone has the mp3, please sent it 2 me.

I'm back frm Bangkok, and by now, it's quite evident that i aint in the best of moods. To cut things short, Eric's my ex-boyfriend. Breaking up's never easy. It wasnt last time, neither is it now. No doubt he brought it up, i was the cause of it. If i'm hurting, it hurts him much worst. I asked if we might be together in future, he answered "the future's dark, thats why we've gotta find out.." Knowing US however, i doubt we'd get back together.

There's this pain in knowing that someone who's been there for you is gone. Its an undescribable feeling of anguish, where life seems bleak, and everything else reminds me of him. no, Us. The tiniest of things.. everyday life. When he was around, i failed to cherish him. Now that he's gone, i'd always miss him. "Love Conqures all". Some believe in that... I'm a living evidence, showing that two party may love each other, and yet not stay together.

I asked for one last hug, as an ex girlfriend. At that moment. I knew it truly is over.

When we touched down in the evening, Eric switched on his hp, and found out his dad passed away in the afternoon. He was devastated. =period=. i need not mention more. i wish i could be by his side. Guess its better that i do not. i want to.. But he doesnt want me to. For now, he'd be in the hands of some other friend. I'd just sit here, wishing for the best, worrying about everything. I've always thought that when u're down, you'd want the person closest to your heart to be with you. I've forgotten the fact that i'm now the ex-girlfriend. Rather than create more worries, it's wiser that i step aside. To the sidewalk, where every other normal friend would stand. Hope he doesnt read my blog for the time being. It'll only give him more stress and pressure. Should i even go to the wake? It'll be painful if he sees me... what should i do?

Life goes on, School + Work. However, i've got no mood for either. Just going about doing things i ought to be doing, with memories flashing by, tears ocassionally seeping down my cheeks. Someone said to cry a little for myself, a little for eric's dad, and laugh a little too, cuz there are people who care. Indeed there are. For that i'm thankful.

I'm hurting. Its an emotional lost im feeling. a hole in the heart if thats what u wana call it...

Dont even wish to think about the trip, but on a lighter note, here's a brief summation.

1 pants

3 necklace

3 belt

4 bags

5 shorts

6 footwear

13 Clutch bag/lil pouches

13 Tees

16 Tank tops

16 Nail Polish

34 Ear Rings

woW. That's excluding food, and lil gifts for people. Oddly, packing these spoils dont seem to make me feel any better. It onli made me remember.... that fateful trip.

Changi airport

Well, AS USUAL, i'm surfin the net at the airport, while my the smoking community gets their puff in the smoking room.

haven't slept the whole nite. Really cold. and i didnt dare i didnt dare to toss n turn. was worried tt iris mite wake up.. AND, there wasnt much space to turn either.. heehee..

Feel FILTHY rich. i've got 10,000 (bhat)!!!!!!!!!!! hehhee... wow.. Hmm let's see what i'm set to do when im there basically its shopping n eating. here's the breakdown:

1. Tom Yum Soup
2. Khao Niao Ma Muang (mango with glutinous rice)
3. Mango salad
4. Papaya salad
5. Manicure
6. Pedicure
7. Bag
8. ..........etc..

Ok, eric's hurryin me... the rest went to get the fags, while i'm blogging.. ciaoz peeps. i'd be back in NO TIME!! literally. *sigh*

ByEee

Pre thai..

Before i Leave for Thailand...

I'm at iris's place.. preparing to head to bed and YET i'm still blogging. Why? Felt the need to leave a presence before i leave. Feeling a lil sombre now. Not exactly high spirited. Because i'm Broke? maybe... Oh, Another person said i look "rounder". Man. I've got say.. $6 bucks to my name? Someone mentioned tt i'd get my pay on 23rd.. Boy was i happy.. Greatttt..... only to find out, that the $$'s only coming in on the 26th~. *counts fingers*

Watched the Dim Sum Dollies last nite! Definately a great treat! Sure was funny. the Puking 1/2 fish 1/2 cat.. the bollywood scene, rock band, etc. Memorable for sure. No doubt it was back row seats, the sound system definately made up for it. couldnt really see the facial features, but does it matter? it was more of a MUSICAL! Selena's fat thighs made mine seem like chopsticks. Wish i never saw emma yong's tho. Imagine watching it alone? No one to laugh with, no one to share the joke, the grin, etc.. Hence i'm glad ive got the chance to watch it with someone enjoyable! Well priscy, there're always other plays to watch! u know i'm always game for one!! next show anyone??



Nonsensical ramblings. Hmm. I've felt the need to blog about seemingly "cheeem" and intellectual stuff, which just MIGHT act as a mirror, reflecting my intellegence n self worth. However, with its restrictive nature. i Guess not. i mean.. i Better not.

No doubt the whole world says a blog's "personal", and its in a paradigm of its own. I dont think so. Nope, i aint trying to be Different again. i just happen to be. Isnt everything "Charlotte's" BIG WORLD WIDE WEB public? Maybe if u hide behind a peusodeum, no one wld "recognize" you, but they sure do "recognize" the info! Hence, how can a blog be anything PRIVATE? Well, you can Write all you want, and people can say all they want.

Speaking of which. i Remember some fucked up council members i once worked with. *note the fucked up*.. honestly, as of now, i dont quite care if they see this.. *neh neh ni booBoo!*. oh, i was saying.. they were F-ed up in their own way. There was one incident, where i was once an innocent blogger, i blogged about things which i felt were utterly harmless. those monkeys made monkeys out of themselves! one told the other, n another told the other n the other other other.. Right... How very gossipy. Sigh. Through that lesson however, i've learnt. The blog's not SO private after all.

Even the famous xiaxue.blogspot.com has been speaking less of controversial issues. Well being slammed by the public is one thing, who's the public?? they're merely strangers who happen to know you. Being criticized, questioned, doubted by ppl close to you's terrible. You start thinking if u should even blog what you feel and think. Why? because of its implications. How can there never be implications??? Its impossible. There's always articles like "what if your boss reads your blog." and honestly, there's not one boss who wld say "Great blog you've got! Your writings are really insightful!"... well, maybe if that fake blog's all bout patting the ass of ur boss.. *ooOhh. patting of ass.. hmm that reminds me of something. heh.. its another story for another time.

Right, more about the DUMB me. i cleverly left my jacket n specs at home. right. smart. so smart. how am i ever gona see once i tk off my contacts... great job val..!! its 3, afew more hrs to waking up.. Finally seeing eric in.... 4 hrs? hehee.. i'm dreding the flight.. but looking foreward to the shopping. =) iris's still in the toilet! gonna KO soon. do drop me msgs/tag/mail/bubbletalk, etc. i'd be back in no time. WOULD definatly try 2 tk more pix. but i suck in most lar. so... dont have too much hope on tt.

Goodnite to you...

** A GREAT BIG SORRY**

To prisc, lyly, joanne, zeyu, dolin...

So sorry tt didnt get up... sigh. =( it really was on silent. i didnt turn it on after the play. =( sigh.. make it up 2 u guys soon..

GotThem

CONGRATS PRISC!!!

for those who dont already know, PRISC GOT 2ND FOR THE RMIT PAGEANT!!! heh. thank good, i didnt waste my $18 bucks to enter Gothem.

Did just a couple of drinks, and i headed off as i was driving, and simply HAD to eat super. humongous craving. The rest's history. had an enjoyable and memorable night. Dont ask why. i wont divulge. That's for ME to know, and for YOU [not] to find out.

Heading for lessons soon, i'm GOD DAMN tired, and i've got the DIM SUM DOLLIES to watch 2nite. cant wait!! been wanting 2 watch for some tim =)

More updates when i'm back ya. time to head to the bank, t/f $$, and get my ass to CLASS. sigh

incense make me puKe..

it's a SUN day, and the sun is indeed shining brightly. Just got bk frm the temple at kebangan. Grandma's residing there.

Seriously, i've got no idea why we go to the temple just to take a look at those urns, tablets, and do nothing, leave for lunch. I understand the traditional R-E-S-P-E-C-T which chinese have, no offence, but going there, putting food, incense, that's it?

When my parents pass away, they wont be placed in a temple, where i visit them on "special" ocassions, putting food, keeping the food, etc. They'd be in my heart always.. on ocassions like their bday/aniversary, i'd prolly go through the old pics, thinking of times we spent together, or doing things we use to do. I suppose that's much more meaningful than a superficial act of gathering there, n thats it. To make things worst, i've never held a joss stick. Guess its because mum's christian. And i was supposed to be one.

Picture GaLore!

Horse:Dog:Cat:Lion:Sheep:Duck:Pig:Elephant:Cow

Remember i mentioned tt eric and i went to the arcade, had a helluva time catching those lil toys!?!? HERE THEY ARE!! Adorable arent they! hehehe... Super kiddish of me i know, but YES, they looK sOoo adorable.

Guess those who havent seen eric r kinda curious bout how he looks? heh... i've got a few req for his PIC, but NO!!!! i shall keep y'all in suspense. or rather, i cant find a super good lookin pic of him. He looks betta in person, so Date him if u wana take a peeK!.. however, i've got a pic of his beloved....................................................Bike

Yes Yes, that's ME pretending 2 ride his bike..Addidas jacket suits the bike coL huh.. I'd never attempt to ride it, rem the day where i crashed eric's 1st bike. Not crashed lar. just... fell to the side, broke the mirror etc?? heh.. ok. *pulls ears* i'm NOT riding another bike on my own. =(

Got my new TOY yesterday. Really needed it. For those who dont already know how hairy i am, dont try to find out. I'm concealing my "hairness" as much as possible. Cost a bomb, but it sure is worth it.. Been eyeing it for sometime. Kept contemplating geting a cheaper one, but guess when BODily stuff r concerned, i'd rather pay a lil more.. To be honest, it doesnt feel very "satin-ish" leh.. sigh. maybe its just me. hehee.. here u go.. my newest TOY:

Laterz peeps.. time for some serious bummin before i head to work.. ;)

Have a great sunday!!

ktv nite

it's time to BLOG before i head out again.

heh. honestly, MAYBE, just MAYBE, parents need some form of conditioning. I mean, rem those days where we had to get bk home by 7 for dinner?? mmm, be back b4 10, then it was 12, then ocassionally 1am, Once in a blue moon 3? then it became the very FREQUENT 5am?? heh.. allseem so familiar... tsk.. then, the "geh kiang" me had to be a nice girlie, n get bk home earli very often... so now my mum's showin me THE FACE... (note the col)

aniway. they just asked bout work, $$$ etc. sigh. tryin 2 sound out how much $$ i've got left! heh.. clever me... didnt divulge much..

Heading dwn to KTV with Vanassa n mandy.. =) 3 girls only!? i'm starting 2 wonder how long we'd last too! hahahaa.. gosh. i'm hungry again.

More when i'm back!! =)

i'm CURED

VaL's a BIMBO.. With No ass.

as ive said, it aint my ass, it's my jeans tts lose.

*state of self denial*

I've gotta type really gently.. or i'd ruin my spoiL of the month!
was high time i did some nail therapy again. been quite awhile since i've had time for that. ;) Went to Jurong point with an intention of gettin lunch n returning those lib books, but indulgence got the better of me, got a pedicure... and a manicure. tsk! too bad i dont have a cam, or i'd snap a few pretty pix. Toes are GREENish GOLD! Realized tt its of the same col that i wana get my Birkenstock in.. madrid-Bronze.

Ok, this sat, i WILL GET MY BIRKENS! must! Didnt wana get my usual french done, so had silver tips and a pink base. sad to say, the pink is TOO pinkish sigh. Not very VAL.

Nevertheless, since i dont have the time to switch nail cols every now n then, this is better then nothing. aint super satisfied as there are bubbles already! due to the intense heat for speed drying. then the silver on 1 finger actually ruNs!!(or is it becuz of the cheese fries i ate?).. ok ok, any guy readin this, u're lost by now. i know. If u arent? good for u.. hehe..

Twas a Mustafarie day last night. VANASSA and MANDY (gosh.. i always mix them up unintentionally), BM, Yuna, Hilda, ST and myself. had a nice time, but wld haf liked 2 spent MORE time there. the place's Fkin big.. Ok.. more mOre MORE.. i'm enjoyin my self..

Had a row with Eric ytd on my way dwn to clementi. tsk...... shalln't say more.. kinda touchy. For those who listened, u know who u are.. I thank u frm the bottom of my heart for the care you've shown in ur own way... i understood the "sense" u made, n i know what to do.. I'm a big kiddo now.. Still a kiddo tho.. :D The rest who simply made my day... I appreciate it very much too!! :)

and Darling, U know i never wanted it to happen.

Now, i dont wish to talk about it,
because i juz want it to get better,

not dwell on it.

shalln't say more..

because u know what i really mean, what im implying etc.

Right?

OK, only you'd know somehow..

Others prolly dont.

You definately will

*winKz*

Happy National Day!

Happy National Day to all!!

CuMMon, let's be a lil patriotic yea?

got my first and only "Happy National Day" sms last nite aft the stroke of 12. Well, am i lacking in friends who circulate sms-es. or Does no one give a Sh*t to such days now!? Honestly, i prefer national days back then, were we could queue for tickets, camp outside, have fun! now? its just the S.A.M machine. n its done. look what IT has done to us.. tsk!

Felt that i've got "no-life" since i'd b stayin home on an eve of a public hol, happily complained to hilda online once i got home frm work, and we headed back to the workplace, looked for van, and went for SUPPEr together with van, and roy, ST and another friend came along later. haha.. happening! Where to? NUS PPPratta!! been a long time since i've been there. N the food takes just as long.

New found fave: Pineapple prata! its got *duh*pineapples, cheese, some onion (by mistake i suppose) and maple syrup on top. *SeDap!* Next was round 2 at WestCoast park. I still cant believe i walked all the way there.. its kinda far. Infact, as i'm bloggin the morning after, my legs are aching a lil. Due to walkin? er.. maybe the little fun we had at the playground.. heh..

The place's a lil rundwn as compared to back then. Recalled tt not too long ago 4 yrs back? 5? it was the JSS vball girl's fave haunt. those were the days.. Had a smashin good time back then. When i see some irritating sec skool kids, i tend to look back n wonder "HEY! was i REALLY like tt too!? sucha Pest!" hahaha.. now i know

And so Now's project time, waitin 4 priscy 2 pop over to my place as the lib's closed for the day.. and get this damn proj done. (i swear mr chan lai huat.. u really are an ass.. makin a fOOL of us all.. if we cant use that framework, WHY PUT IT EVERWHERE!? workshop, notes, etc... damn.. THANKS to u, im redoing my proj on a national day!)

FYI, it's due tmr. shit. what if we cant finish it!?!? *bites nails* i've got wrk at 6... oh man... Might be Heading dwn to Mustafas tonite to source for a TV as well. Know nuts bout tvs. Just know its time for the one sitting in the living room to retire. its constantly hinting us by taking longgger n longgggggger to load. Now who's heard of a TV-loading-time!?!?!? Exactly my point. NEW TV, HERE i COME! Thx to Yuna the tv-expert who doesnt mind goin dwn with me, and BM who "wanted" to come, but couldnt. Hmm.. animore MuStaFarians? :P

My Brother

My bro's sick.. For a couple of days already. Let's hope he gets well soon. 39.Smthing degrees. sigh. Know it sux to have fever, esp fever that runs so high. Perhaps it really burns up my brains!? sigh. why cant it burn up my fats instead! haha

nevertheless, i'm really kinda worried for that boy. One moment he's fine, the nxt moment, he's all feverish again. Just last nite, he was up and alive, hlping me exterminate THAT cocroach lurking in my room.. "Hwoa-TaHh-Hai-YaH!" SmACK. n its dead. haha.. *drama* Feels good to have a brother by my side. Always.

When he was stil in my mum's tummy, i wish i had a little sister! wont it be fun to have a lil sista? aparently, what popped out was this cute lil baby (BOY) .. really enjoyed holding him in my arms ocassionally. feeding him from the bottle.. :) felt great to know i had a sibling. someone who shares the same parents, and supposed to have certain characteristic/features of mine.

As he grew up, lets just say he became a brat. The maids always doted on him more than they cared for me! hmpH! perhaps its because i always told on them.. haha..

"mummy mummy! auntie helen bring guy home!!"

"Daddy!! auntie zeny talk on phone 21 times for 3 mins." Shows my RECORDS

When my bro was in kindergarden, he fell at the play grnd, and cut his forehead, after that, he vomited the whole night. i swear i was worried sick.. thought i might just lose this lil bratty brother of mine, thankgoodness. it was just food poisoning.. Didnt like him back then. No idea where the anxiety came from. Guess its just the fact that he's my brother.

He's always the one with $$, Sweets, everything. his sister me, either spent the $$ or ate the sweets. Hence resulting in me borrowing/getting it frm him. Ocassionally even conning $$ frm him! hahaa.. he's well aware, but he never really pestered, or harped on it. Just for notes, till tis very day, he'd still say i OWE him $$$ no matter how much i return him.. tsk.. sigh. never offend a kid i say..

I vividly remember the days where we'd race dwn the stairs.. all 12 storys.. :) Stupid jokes in dads car lame stories and riddles, he never got sick of what i said. He'd always feel entertained, and in turn entertain me! More about him Next time.. He's one interesting kiddo.l. and i really wish to see him grow up and become he man he's gona be..

Swear he's one smart ass. he DOES NOT STUDY!!! cross my heart! yet he scored god damned well in Olevs, got to ACJC, and OCASSIONALLY does his hmwork these days.. Hmm did i mention that he's gettin all fit n buffy!?

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He's well!!!! :) thx to TLC FRoommmmmmm.... My mum! haha.. oH, the award he got for his "outstanding o lev results" (big deal ms XX frm boonlay sec, must u emphasize that when u ring us up!?) he gave the CD voucher to me! =) beams.... when he saw that, he immediately told mum "Give jie jie!" sweet... have tis fuzzy feeling everytime i think of it..

Now that i'm writing these stuff, there seem 2 be many more happy memories i've shared with him.. No doubt he's a special person in my life. If there's anyone i dote on in this world the most (before i've got kids) it'll be my brother. In life, nothing's permanent, but the blood ties we have, can never be erased..

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righhtt.. i'm HOT/... hahaha

hmm.. got tis frm friend's friend's friend's blog...

Appreciate what you have at the moment..

hmm quite a couple of days since i've blogged huh.. shall skip what came in between. Interesting few days.. but. i cant quite remember things in details as everyone knows.

Nevertheless its a SATURDAY!!! and i'm gonna be a good girl, stay home, and do work! honestly, i think school aint a breeze. Lessons r getting kinda monotonous, i find myself counting the mins to break, lookin at the clock, waiting for classes to end.. only to either end up with more projects, or head to work. BaHhh..

work, yes work! got really pissed of ytd. i'm afraid of the cold n was sitting right under the vent. Imagine the heat. i practically took off my warmest windbreaker. was fuming. dumb people. like fkin dumb. One example was spending 15mins explaining to this person why 24mths of 8Oct'03, is 7Oct'05, and not september. What a waste of time. My final count was. "ok lor, u take a calender, slowly count one mth by 1mth.!" realize i was kinda rude. but gosh... dumbness-ultimatum!

just found a friend recently. well.. its purely "stumbled" upon.. but guess we get along well, and we're good for each other, as we keep each other entertained, and cheered up. aint that good? Tho there r plenty of novelties in this world.. maybe, just maybe noveltey does last, and changes into something more permanent? say.. a permanent novelty? haha.. guess not. otherwise. it wont be called a novelty. Then again, maybe it aint a novelty! just pure fun, enjoyment, and support... ;) well.. as a parting note...

Learn to appreciate what u have at the moment, and dont look too far ahead..

ATTENTION PLS!

ATTENTION!!

Sexy Buns u cant MISS!! A fly wld go Right smack into the crack.

Personal FAVE! She's hot, doncha think!? ahem. Thats the body i wana attain! hmph. someone take those tempting dessert n supper away please!?

But she's got this CFM look. Ok, M21. Those who dont already know what the CFM look stands for. u prolly shouldnt find out.

DYING FOR MORE!?!?!

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HERE U GO!!

This'll put u guys to shame!! haha..

Right, BET i've gotten All your attention. So, here's the point, i've got a couple of surveys tt need to be done URGENTLY!, so do kindly render your *ahem* expertise ya?

Gosh.. now i cant get my eyes off that site with bbbbeaUUuutiful woman. tsk. wld buying prettier bras make me sexier!?

My first complimentary letter

Got up late as usual, because it was raining. YES VAL BLAME THE RAIN!!! so i dragged myself out of bed at 1230, showered, and attempted to start work!! sigh. how can i ever do that.. I shld have known betta that i cant start work without eating first!! Right. Read 1 whole chapter of the "wrong stuff", and realized only after i consulted prisc. Smart val VERY SMART!

Since everyone's sayin i shld eat more fruits and veg, i decided to go HEALTHY today! I took out the blender, Dumped an apple in (i cut it up of cuz), ICE (lots of em), Mango Juice with nata de coco, 1 yakult (new less calorie version), and i BLENDED IT!!. Thought it wasnt as sweet, so i added a little brown sugar. Ended up with what? 3 big glasses!? Holy Shit.. It tastes GREAT!!! *yea right. what can i say after dumping that gruesome lookin thing down my throat!? 3-4 big glasses so to speak. I gave up after the 3rd one. It looked yellow, with red specks (becuz i didnt shave the skin, no, i wasnt lazy, i couldnt find the shaver. Is it called a shaver!?)

Next was work, Got a Complimentary LETTER!! =) BEAMS! yes, i do remember the person who wrote it. Feels nice to have a letter! But guess as a part time staff, it doesnt make much of a difference. Does it? Hmm.. So will my pay be $20/hr!? haha. Dream on. Yea.. i'm practical! Lets just say that.. i never expected someone wld be so "free" to even write a letter or remember my name over the phone. Complains, maybe. compliments.. i never thought it wld. Lets just hope this wont be the last of it! :) GamBatte vaL! Starting to feel attached to work, and the workplace as a whole. Feels nice having people around me whom i can consult with regards to queries... It makes work a whole lot nicer.

I know.. my blog's lackin of pix these days.. wait wait wait.. soOOnn.. got some in mind already. just cant be materialized YET.

THURS! GEYLANG FROG PORRIDGE!!!. Ate it at china twn with eric tt day.. n it didnt tast thta bad after all! *grinz.. Thurs wld b the day where i taste the so called BEST in SG!. Then again. i hope the supper's still on.. will it hilda? BM!? ST!? er.. who else.. VANessa!? :)

Back to booKs.

Will the sunshine come!?

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May sleep take over me as soon as it can.. Because i cant bear another moment of this night. I want the daylight to take over. When the sun shines... so will i...

had my post taken away. why!? i didnt feel the need to have it. Eye hurts. Bingo! Tears... Will u cheer me up!? It isnt hard to cheer me up.. come on.. just try!?

Ok.. i keep typing, and deleting, typing n deleting. it simply isnt coherent.
i'm sorry. i'd try again tomorrow.

for now.................... u'd just need to know i'm upset. Thx to everything.