Stress Buster

Wanted to study. But the thought of spending some time out i.e. Eating/ktv-ing/shoping/massaging. was far too tempting. I subccumbed to temptation.

Took a cab down and I WAS EARLY!! bloody $13.60 wasted on cab. could have been more. the cabbie wanted to take me sight seeing from Boonlay to orchard and down to bugis. I told him:

"UNCLE GO AYE, ECP, EXIT ROCHOR DEN GO STRAAAAAAIIIIGGGHHHT".

he replied

"ore..." (sounding dejected). Less income for him! hah

Went to this place a couple of shops beside Phins (yang. u noe which one!?) Set meal was absolutely cheap. Not the best quality of cuz. But worth the $$ nonetheless.. Full course set lunch for approx $12.50. 4 of us shared a Shiraz. Knew my face would be red n swollen. Think its some kind of allergy.. ugh... That explains y i can only drink in daaarrrkk places.

Lets see who was there ytd... Jenn, Vif, Kevin, Carene, Ben, Hanyi, Meryl, Myself, Adrian, Eddie, Mandy, Clarene. [in order of the sitting position] hahah.. after that was ARCADE!!!! HOW OLD ALREADY!!! yeah. young at heart. :P and it really trains the arm muscles!! Then to billy bombers for drinks, Center point for massage, heeren for shopping..!! THEN its back to studies after that. BORRRIING!.

Shopping's really a form of stress relief.. busted a portion of my salary already!!! haha. Worth it tho.. 6 tops from kai and toss 1 heels from xodous 1 dress. dont ask how much i spent. Lets just say tt i need to work harder... more OT... and SPEND less.. AND IVE YET TO EVEN BUY MY BAG(s) FROM JUNKFUNKMUNK! now i sound like a spendtriff.... or some rich daddy's girl... ehhhh give me some credit. i work my $$$ worth! while everyone's enjoying, getting $$ from their parents, from their bf. im slogging my guts out.. having heart attacks and shortness of breath from speaking to nonsensical idiots at work. (bein a lil dramatic here)...

Sigh. Additional expenditure this coming month wld include some genting trip, some dive trip, and james bday present. (and jac's =P ) Time to wrk more OT... get temp jobs.. to get the $$$ rolling in...

Books are calling. Havent been studyin ytd nor the day b4. dont ask why... JUST DONT... hais.

Shall not blog about today's paper. Its time wasting to even blog about it. In short. It's 1 Down 2 to Go. This is gona be a Nonsensical Post about looking good... :P

On a lighter (i mean "heavier")note. I've been putting on weight. Really bimbotic to blog such unintellectual stuff which capacitates my imagination and language. But to hell with it. hah. with boobs of mine. Id be damned if i ever be a full fledged! hah.

I want my body to be LIKE THAT!!!:



I tell u.. she's sexy aight...... gosh. if i were a guy and i were to see a girl in bed LIKE THIS. id get the big O right away. hah. In order to look like THAT

I'd need to work on:
1. Arms
2. Tummy
3. Thighs

And i can't work on:
1. Boobs
2. Face
3. Hair
(dont have much choice do i)?

Im gona exercise and lose fats. i SWEAR.......!!!
all BECAUSE i went to take my body Fat %. and Guess what. i'm 24.4% fats!!!!!!! ugh.... feel so gooish all of a sudden.



So im in the FITNESS range! *sigh of relief*. tho im like 0.6% away from the acceptable range. If i dont do anything now..... i'd be obesed soon. Some ppl have like only 3% body fat! *snorts!* and look healthy, and good at the same time **Double snoRt**

THE PLAN

Goal: 18% body Fat
Current: 52Kg (assuming lar!)

52KG X 0.244=12.7
52KG X 0.16 = 8.32KG
12.7-8.32 = 4.38KG

ok. Lets be objective. Even if i cut my boobs away. i prolly wont lose that much weight.

Let's try with 18% body fat instead lar.. )
52KG X 0.18=9.36
12.7-9.36=3.34KG

OK!!!! OBJECTIVE FOR THIS HOLIDAY= LOSE 3.5KG!

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I want hair like theirs. =( The color prolly wont quite suit me. But.. i love their hair. So before i start fantasizing about havin such messily-sculpted hair. Ive gota resist the urge to snip my hair off if i even wana get close to having such hair. hmph. My boyfriend likes me having longer hair....... so id just let it grooooowwww. Cant exactly say that i hate long hair. But my ends are like the ends of the broomstick, poking into my back!!

James stressful exam is gona be over n done with tmr. hah.. hope he'd at least return to 1/2 his normal self. It cant go on cuz i cant take much more of it.... Tried De-tatching myself from him today as he's got tonnes of memorizing to do and i didnt wana disturb. Had to keep myself thoroughly occupied to resist urges of mood swing, temper blowing, argument seeking, or even the simplest SMS-ing.. No doubt occupied, it's still tough. I can never treat my bf with less attention. Im trying larrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... Lets hope it wont be a norm for me. Traumatizing thought. No mood for anything... ugh.

Gona be doing lunch with my Sunshine Co Peeps.. Since pay's in.. i guess i MAY go KTV too!!! Gota save $$.. Shall limit my shoping this month to sports attire, and a weighing machine. hah!

MeiJi Yoghurt

i tell u... Meiji Yoghurt is Orgasmic!!! (Oh and i think Hi-Chew is from Meiji too!)

a long time back when BM told me his wife loved it.. i said it tasted bad and that SKI yoghurt was the most divine yoghurt on earth. I beg to differ now. Tasted one at work, when it was given for some destress activity. Thanks to Fura and Adrian's strong recommendation, i took the Longan Meiji Yoghurt. From then on im hooked. For those who dont already know, im an extremist!!! No time to define how Extreme an Extremist i am but.... in simple terms, i dont do things in moderation la. So ive been having like 3-4 Cups a day already!!!! hahahaha



Those who are game to try.. here are a couple of ways ive came up with! Leme noe if it tastes good or if the 6th way works! (tried and tested only on Longan flavor):

1. The Boring way
Simple aint it? Straight off the counter, or just out from the fridge. Moderately chilled. Where yoghurt still looks "yoghurtish". Scoop by Scoop.. and it still tastes awsome.

2. The Best for Last way
Slurp down every single bit of yoghurt and leave the LONGAN for the last! But then.. you wont think the longan's very nice. Cuz it tastes relatively plain on its own. compared to those canned or fresh ones.

3. The BEST first way
As the name goes. you Eat up all the longan and enjoy the best bit.. each cup comes with approx 2.5 longan.. after which just dump the rest of the yoghurt away.. or better still! add ur own fruits in!

4. The Brainfreeze way
Leave it in the freezer for approximately 30-45 mins. Mix it well with a metal spoon, and you've got a brain freezing emulsion of ice cooooold yoghurt that makes ur teeth hurt. Beta use sensodyne. :P

5. The Forgetful way
Leave it in the freezer, forget about it. Take it out. realize its ROCK hard. Put it back into the fridge.... and use all other ways. =) [ok this is lame i know]

6. The VAL'S WAY!!!!
here's how it goes. Put it into the freeeezer for 5 hrs (approx). Pop it open. There would be a thick layer of creamy yoghurt stuck on the rim. Break it. the bottom would consist of mainly icy residue (ice kachang look alike) Mix and stirr it all up, making sure the now frozen longan minces into small bits. flip it over. ANYTHING. just make sure the yoghurty part and icy part and longan bits mix well. then compact them back into the shape of the container. Grab a plate, Invert it over! WOALAH!!!!!!!!!! you've got your Very own Yoghurtish-longan-ice kachang. Top it with more fruits if u must. It melts very quickly so be sure the entire process is QUICK, and gobble everything up!!!! =)


i know its hard to visualize... anyone wants to try my creation!?!? the last person on earth would be prisc. hah. she "LOOOOOVVVEEESSSSS" (with very big " ") yoghurt. :P

Affection

Affection

Everyone needs some of it. The more the merrier i should say.
I wish i could speak to you.
But before i do, i already know your answer(s). Yes. Its most justifiable i should say.

HATE the lack of affection. I feel like a friend at times. Where there's no topic for conversation. No little smiles or gestures from you.

yes... im telling myself/you're telling me/everyone's telling me.. its the studies... its the exams.. its the stress.

BaHhhh!!! yar.. it is lar... but there's no one to speak to and no way i can convey my feelings to you. no room for negotiation. no way you're gona understand, no reason why u should change. hence i can only blog, knowing you will never see this in time, nor speak to me about it in any way. Not to mention cheer me up.

phOoo that was quite a mouthfull. CHEER UP VAL!!! =)



So. leme ask. Which is worst?
1. Having a (ex)girlfriend who cries about her ex boyfriend frequently?
2. Having a girlfriend who feels upset about what's happening cries her hearts out when she's alone and you not knowing anything? (For the obvious reasons cuz she keeps it from you)

Cool. Everybody just leave me alone. It'll blow over.
When its over... it'll truly be over.
FUCK! do something!!

Neglected.

Feeling Neglected.
[for the obvious reasons]


and negligible for that matter.
Negligible: adj.
Not significant or important enough to be worth considering; trifling.
>> as per dictionary.com

Yeah. I'm Neither significant nor important to be worth considering at this point of time. Not even by myself. Too many priorities. Cramps hurt like shit yet all i wana do is study. bloody period. bloody blues. feeling bloody neglected by everybody including myself.

Yes to everyone reading this.. im pmssy again. SO! i still have to study.
Besides. No one's doing anything to make me feel better or happier in any way for the loooonnngggest time. Even im too sick of doing the cheering up. Cant always do it on my own can i!? I need to hand the task to someone.. yeah. Which unlucky soul u say.!!?

Nuff said. N-eglected with a Capital N. ugh.

Have a Heart

Have a heart SINGAPOREANS. or Taiwanese, Japanese, China citizens, Malaysians for that matter.

Is it so bloody hard to GET YOUR ASS up from the MRT seat, and let an old lady/old man have your seat? I can accept it if its those middle aged old aunty refusing to move from their seat. I can understand if a woman with her kid doesnt stand up. I can even comprehend why office people pretend (some) to be asleep and not seeing anything. What i cant accept/ understand/ comprehend is WHY young people dressed in casual wear is NOT standing up for someone who needs the seat more!? Unless they're travelling from Boonlay all the way to Pasir Ris, there's no reason WHY they can just pretend not to see, flick their nails or act indifferent.

An old couple came in to the MRT, and there was only 1 seat left. The old man stood over the seat and signaled for his wife to come over. The wife insisted that he sat down (but how could he as a gentleman! albeit an old one) So, the old lady sat down and EVERYONE LOOKED AWAY! you wicked ppl will get to seat in wheelchairs when u're old... I stood up, beckoned to the old man.. and he sat dwn with gratitude. Guess What. The rest of the many other people (especially younger ones) just stared at me. To those who're reading this. please make it an attempt to get up if u see someone in need of a seat. I cant say i get up 100% of the time but i at least do try to take note if there're anyone who needs the seat. If u believe in karma, then what goes around comes around. If you are damn shag that day. Fair enough. ENJOY your seat. My point being... be socially responsible. If everyone only think for themself... it's gona be a really pathetic world.

(wait. im not all great, and socially responsible and all that bull shit everytime... I just try to be as much as i can..)

Here's why im not:

As i was getting out of the MRT. saw this Blind (partially) person with a walking stick. Everyone around was just moving away, making sure he had space to walk. some even walking behind him, with concerned expressions. (me included). as he was approaching the esclators, he stumbled a little. u could see a few faces flinch. But none stepped forward. I went to him, and led him down the escalator and out of the gantry. After that. i left and walked to the bus stop on my own.

I felt guilty. Shouldnt i have asked him where he was heading and maybe lead him there!? as i was walking i kept turning back... He went to the same bus stop as me. I could have helped him all the way there instead of walking of on my own. But i didnt... he banged into like 2 pillars 1 dustbin. and me? i wasnt any faster at getting a bus. i only stood there... feeling guilty. wishing i could have done more.

now. for the MORAL of the story (now i sound like tan ah teck)...:

• Help while you still can or while you have the chance. Dont end up regretting having known that you COULD Have done something but you didnt.
• We're lucky and blessed.. with good health... healthy functioning limbs and senses.. youth... we need to be contented with our life, and live it to the max.. Everything could be gone in a flash.

Back to the pathetic world of B-O-O-K-S. and Studying.. Things are really monotonous for me. In every single aspect of life. Aint complaining.. cuz things might be worst... Just ranting and hoping things WOULD be better. Ciaoz..

Study Blues..

Just here for a very quick post.
Doubt im gona have the time or energy in the nxt few days to come.. ugh.. working from sunday alll the way straight till FRI and it's only TUES now! wait. its wed already

Working 9-6 frm Tues to Thurs.. Aint exactly work.. M Card training.. gota get up HELL early, and after which, ive gota drag myself to STUDY.

Everyone's so into studying now.. even william (glad he is)..
and James.. he's.... very much a perfectionist.. hence the endless need to study more, cover more, spent more time. =) which is good. cuz its a BIG source of motivation for me.

However, i must say that his mood/temprement's too difficult for me to handle..
He use to be the type of guy tt would put himself in other ppl's shoes.
Wonder where THAT guy's gone to. I dont wana compromise myself. neither do i wana keep myself constipated. Usually, if any one pisses me off, id just flare up, or at least let them noe y im unhappy. These days. Even if i do get a lil pissed with him, after awhile, id just let it ease off. Why? Cuz if he's pissed, i'd feel worst. Congrats. That's one deadly weakness of mine n now the whole world knows.

Wait.. see, im compromising myself again.
I just hope things would be back like before...
Back to the time where the spark was there. Where i didnt hear things like " I'm Tired or Busy vthat's why i..."

Everyone's tired and busy. its just how u manage time and handle "life". I want him to hear me speak, and not me hearing him speak all the time.. I want a boyfriend that can be a "listener" who's genuinely concerned bout my life and my work too!. Hais... if i speak i know he will listen... but he always gives me the feeling that he's pre occupied. with something in his mind, or his eyes wld dart arnd, or he wld just seem uninterested!!! =(

I remember the spark. I just dont see it now. I want it back... I want it to come back. I know it would.... i hope it would.... the thing is.. i dont know what i can do about it! i feel so helpless.. i dont wana sob to myself thinking why he doesnt reply my msgs or ignores me at times... ugh.. there are 101 IF ONLYS..... What's your biggest IF ONLY!?

I just dont feel as assured about this relationship as before. When James askes me not to read too deep into his meaning/words.... i reali wish that he does the reverse. READ INTO MY ACTIONS AND WORDS AND MEANING!...

Is this the End of a Start... or the Start of the End?


RIGHT.. so the post ended up relatively long too!! whiny huh!!! u guys aint gona hear me whine for anothe... **count fingers* 4 days??

As much as james is tired and busy. i wish he'd someday somehow see this.. and Remember the good times we had. and perhaps we'd be able 2 find out what went wrong.. and maybe renew whatever spark that has died down...

I wish its just the End of a start.... so this relationship can move on... and not get stagnant..... cuz stagnant water gets stale...

For now.... Just want him, us... or rather ALL of us... to get pass our exams first. everything else can be settled LATER on. i hope.

i detest you!

Was lect in the morning, then Terry came over to SIM.. Ugh. feel bad tt he didnt manage to crash lecture. was awfully packed. next was SHOPPING SPREE with prisc in orchard, Dinner at Phin's.. claiming to serve the best steak. but my well done tenderloin ended up not so well done, baked potato un sliced, with minimal sour cream, and 0 baccon bits. Yanglun, when u're the manager, pls do something about it. especially the AP (attitude problem) waitress. I think my "service" as a customer beta than hers.. More smiles, more thankyou.. hahaha... With comparison like that.. i really think ur service is superb!! =)

Next up.
Im gona blog about some one i detest. i mean.. Dislike. i wasnt a direct "victim" of her disgusting ploys she's a B*tch la. To cut the story short, here's few words to discribe him/her

Backstabber. Two headed snake. Short. Fat. Black-ish skin. Fugly. Bad Hair. No fashion sense. No waist line. No bust/chest line. No ass. Ugly eyes. Disgusting voice. Fashion Victim. Follow BLINDLY. Pushover. Trying too hard. CMI. Outcast. Menace. Social Liability. Lousy English. Bootlicker. No brainer. Big Mouthed. Stumpy. Cant put make up for nuts. 0 Responsibility. Responsibility shrinker. Love-less. Love finding. Attention seeking. Hugs wanting. Deprived. Seemingly high moral standard. Low english level. High expectation. Dreamer. Negative Reinforcement. Turn off. No Brainer. Actor. Crowd follower. Wrong crowd. Dont take criticisms. Exaggaratgor. Lousy worker. cheapo. Childish. Writes horrible stuff. Depressing. Paranoid. Hate inducer.... etc.............

WAIT. i cant believe i juz typed that whole paragraph w/o thinking. im sure i can go on and on and on.. its quite obvious by now that its a HER that im refering to. quick! think!! anyone stepped on my toes recently!? =) If the person were to see this.. she'd be (like i mentioned in the whole list) paranoid. and wondering if the person is her... So peeps.. dont think too much. 做人要万心无愧。。。(did i get it right!?) if its not you.. its not you... If its you.. watch out. And dont get on the nerves of my friends... By the way. you suck..

Bedtime! =) I WILL STUDY HARD TOMORROW!!! id try...

Its only Scary when u remember + Happy bday william!

Ever looked at some old photos, messages, gifts, or place which made u reminisce about the past?

Ever look back at some things, and wonder if u took the right path?
Its the time where all the what ifs would pop up..
"What if i did this..." or
"If only i didnt do that"...

Its true that what's done cant be undone.
Its also true that we may be making a choice of a life time with every decision, every word, every action.

However, we'd never fully understand the fact that a small act today may change a big tomorrow. There're a million and one "tomorrows".. which is your tomorrow??

horribly enough.. everytime some thing jots your memory and brings u down memory lane... you'd ultimately snap back to reality and realize that your current situation aint exactly ideal... and you wish... things were the same as before.. you thought things were the same... but they arent.

It aint so bad if u're oblivious to the surrounding or the past for that matter.
Its only scary... is when you remember.

Random examples include:
you realize your parents have aged alot
you found out your belly's bigger than before
you find crow feet near ur eye area
ur aims and goals are only about making $$
your lover aint the same as before
you cant fit into your old clothes
your boyfriend treats you different from before
friends you thought u had are gone...
things you could do to salvage a relationship
time you could have put to good use.
your feelings aint the same as before
words you could have said to your significant other
dreams which could have been fulfilled...


See what i mean? Have i touched a soft spot!?
Now u understand.....
This is what i mean by IT's only scary when u remember..


aniway

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIAM!!!! MAY U GET AS MANY FUGS AS U LIKE AND STAY CLEAR OF STD!!!

HEY, IM KIDDIN DUDE. =) CANT TAKE A JOKE!? HEHE.. WE'D HAVE FUN ON WED! CANT WAIT TO WATCH MAGIC FUNDOSHI.. YOUR FIRST PLAY IN AGES... =)

My Bday + Mad People

Wow, almost a week since ive blogged!! been procrastinating too often. Everytime i Feel like blogging, i always feel ive got other more important things to do. So here's a LONG POST... id spruce it up with pictures tho =)

Lets start in reverse chronological order. Firstly, today's a crazy day. Not hectic crazy, not unhappy crazy, but C-R-A-Z-Y. Cuz ive met crazy people. Here's why.

FIRST MAD MAN OF THE DAY
On my way home after OTD proj discussion, i saw boarded 74, and sat on the lower deck, nearer to the rear, where 2 rows faced each other. There was this weird looking man, who kept staring at me. Whenever i turned 2 look at him, he'd break eye contact.



Im not sure if im over reacting. but i swear i saw him fondle himself once or twice! Shaggy looking.. awfully short shorts. ugh.. Think i must be a professional sluthe to snap such shots discreetly. Was kinda paranoid.. Is it a bulge i see somewhere!?


Second mad man of the day


Im not sure if its even legal that i post his pix up. but his face deserves to be plastered all over the World Wide Web.

Here's what happened. was just listening to my nano, and all of a sudden he stood up, went over to an indian man 3 seats away from him, asking him to SHUT UP!. and STOP making that irritating sound. wish i videoed it. but sorry guys. aint got the guts. Even all these pix u're seein here, i risked my life, and my phone to take snap shots of him.

Aparently, this indian old man was happily listening to his portable FM radio, which has a belt clip behind. So i presume he was enjoying his song, and just snapping the clip away. This man got irritated, stood up and asked if the indian man if he understood english, and told him if he was not happy, they can both go out of the train at the nxt stop and settle (meaning fight). He was making a scene, and acting like a big ah bengish-bully!

I must say that the indian man was very amicable, and all along it was this mr beng making a big fuss out of nothing. I cant believe EVERY SINGLE ONE stood and watched.. doing absolutely NOTHING. The second time he went to shout at the indian man, i went over and tapped his shoulder saying "Excuse me"! Mr Beng turned around, pointed to me saying "YOU SHUT UP", said like 2 more sentenses to the man, and went back to his seat. I must say that.. i did my "duty". No doubt i got a scolding, put myself at risk, and i should have just stood and watch like everyone else did. I just CANT! its just not me to stand there... doing nothing. many of you would say its dumb to even bother.. But what if you were the old man? Wont you wish someone stopped this mad man or at least acknowledge that u were not in the wrong!?

Before i got off the train at boonlay, the indian man smiled at me, shrugged his shoulders, and simply nodded. I sensed gratitute. At that point of time, i knew i did the right thing. It isnt about the race age or gender. I dont even care if he's an indian, or foreigner, or ang moh. I just cant tolerate such tyrany. i mean, the MRT's a public place.. if mr beng's not happy. get OFF the train. he even had the cheek to mention that everyone around is anoyed by the noise. I swear its so minimal that only HE can hear it.

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Bet most of my bdae pix has been posted up by priscy n key. That's all the pix ive got! so here's snippets of it. Fave pix

Val and the GUYS: foreign worker Yang lun, His foreman William, and boss lookalike Barry! =)


My "crown" dropped off.. caught in the act by photog KEY


Me and my Girlies


ALL of us..


BrokeBack brothers in action. And they sing hell well!


There's Zhou Jie Lun..... and we've got Lin Wei LUN... both lun. mai hiam lar.


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BINTAN TRIP!

We had great food great stay great service there.. but picture wise.. im afraid it's just me, james, james, me, me and james, james and me, so dont expect much yeah!? especially when the photog is either one of us, taking pix of the both of us :S... tsk! kinda hard 2 take nice shots and LOOK good in it at the same time...

For a start, can i just say that bday girls always has the authority...?? i sorta abused it by making him hold my birks while i walk barefooted. thank god i didnt get retribution by suffering a cut on my toe :P


The Beach where we slacked


Having Lunch by the beach.. Had pizza.... yumyum..




Headed to Banyan Tree for dinner.. and I WILL STAY THERE BEFORE I DIE! I SWEAR! arty farty post taken on our way back.. no idea why it turned out tis way.. but nice ah!/ heheheh


Compli bday cake from angsana.. wow... Now that's Service.. :D



All in all.. Had a great relaxing trip =) Love ya Darling