Sighhhh... Studies r goin really slow n bad... havent got the time 2 slp much. not 2 mention BLOG.. grRrr..
Only have got time for brief n incomplete posts as such:
Sigh.. some things just can’t be controlled I guess.. These days, i'm totally maxed out, I don’t even have the luxury to watch my taped shows, neither do I take long relaxing showers nor surf the web endlessly..
Yet at the same time, after I snooze to bed, I inevitably dream of things which I so hate to dream of.. I use to see it as some form of remembrance, now, it's nothing but mere hindrance.
Well, I do admit that I do get weird dreams at times, but it's purely due to my wild imagination! Haha.. The horrible thing about having dreams is to remember the dream vividly after waking up. It just bugs you, just like how some songs gets stuck between your eardrum & brains, constantly playing the jingle on it's own.. Simply irritating! Well, not if u like the song of cuz.. I on the other hand DO NOT like having certain dreams with a certain character in it. uh-uh! No thanks! It sucks la!
Oh, let me share this 'Thomas'-fetish.. Heh..
when I just entered primary 1, I SWEAR I was cute n adorable.. So FuHua primary had this prefectorial system, n this boy was assigned to be the Prefect of my class. The then 1G. And yes, the story goes on.. he was cute, at least at that point I thought so.......................
Incomplete, i know. wld complete it nxt time larhz. :P
For now..its bed time.
Made a couple of new found friends, and they're kinda fun 2 be with! =) too bad for now it's only for STUDIES.. at the usual haunt. argh.
In the meanwhile... I'm so sick so sick so sick of everything that's goin on these days. Sometimes, i think i've HAD ENOUGH!! Enough shit, and emotional wrecking perceptions. I hardly know what i want!. it's like my my brains and my heart just decided to go on strike! Rationality and emotions dont seem to coincide perfectly. Hence my troubled situation.
Hence for now, Im just gona do whatever deem fit. Prisc says i dont know wat i want, and i think she's sick of my whining already (but she still loves me :P)... Guess... I'm like that cuz im still having a battle of the hearts vs brains.
Sometimes, i DO want somethings, but situations put it in a way that Things are no longer attainable. When i get negative response, i'm fine with it. I just get dejected, and i'd be all fine!.. what i cant take about myself, is the highly volatile effect things have on my emotions!. i'm like on a roller coaster ride. Blind folded. Not knowing when the nxt plunge wld be. Val's bad at controlling emotions. I speak my mind. Now i'm thinking its one big flaw of mine....
Oh.. and by the way... If nothing were to happen in bangkok, we'd be together for............ 1Yr, 3mths. HappyBreak up val!. Life cant get any better!! You're having a time of ur life.. aint ya!?!? **sigh**
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