Somewhere Out there

*shocked*

val: keep walking, dont turn back!

Jerrid: Why!?

-reached the next booth-

val: Eric's there, over at the sony booth..

Jerrid: Which one? You wana go over and say hi?

*silence*

val: It's ok...

Jerrid: Shall we go?

val: can we stay here for awhile longer?

Jerrid: Sure. You sure u dont wana go over?

val: *solemnly* No..

-steps closer-
-and closer-
-yet closer-
-till we're less than 5meters apart-

val: he cant see me.

Jerrid: He's busy

val: He looked right through me..

Jerrid: You ok?

val: I'm fine, i just wana look at him.. Never thought he'd b working here.. He lost weight. There's a sadness behind his fake smile.

Jerrid: U wana take some time and calm down?

val: i am calm, am i acting strange!? no!..

-5mins later-

val: Let's go...

So close, and yet so far. He was right there, before me, yet i didnt go over, i didnt say hi, i didnt want to. i couldnt. i understand the fact that it truly is over, but why's there this void in there that dont seem to close up!?

Im at a lost for words. Really dont know what to "type" to describe my feelings. Myself, standing at a distance, and moving closer, hoping he'd see me, catch a glimpse of me, and even see some reaction in his face. But no. He didnt flinch, and that's because he didnt see me. Im just like another "person" walkin around. Was i not your special someone? where's that bond and "sense" we use to share, where we'd "feel" we're close by one another?

I miss you. Dont you know that? do you miss me too?
There's no way others can comprehend, the tears that flow everynite, after 3pm. Guess that's the time where i feel most "alone" and "afraid". Thanks to the special people who've been there for me... thx for those who wana be there, but i've locked up. Do understand that your words dont always aid in the healing process.

Bought my PDA at last! show ya guys a pic of my beauty nxt dae.. hehee.. im officially down to eating grass for the nxt month or so. tho my "parental loan" failed, i'm grateful for the "j-loan" which someone else offered! =) Then again, food expenditure tis mth is bound to drop significantly.

Grew a WISDOM TOOTH. nah. didnt grow it. it was already out. the last "corner" of the tooth just had to pop up, and woalah! there aint enough space. heh.. there goes 90Bucks, for filling of the tooth beside, and some other scaling. In a week or so, it'll be my minor op. Bet my mouth's gona swell like nobody's business..

Quite a couple of pix to show. but the IT idiot me, has YET to mastered the "art" of controlling her new found toy!. HENCE. *ahem* i shall leave it for another time..
hehe..

Laterz peeps