project

i'm feeling

SHIOKK!!!

What could be betta than having a gggrrreAT meal with great company at Crystal Jade after work, AND goin home only to shower, surf the net and head to bed, knowing i can wake up at 1pm. Heavenly. Sweet.

It was christina's last day of work yesterday. Wait. lemme rephrase. She's changing to the morning shift. so basically, we'd see zilch of her. No one's gona haf supper with me anymore. Maybe then i'd quit supper all together. =)



u know what, i dont wana be taken for granted. Getting kinda pissed with project and its mates and editing and substandard work and the RESPONSIBLITY LEVEL of theirs. If anyone of u r reading it, YES, i am gonna be pissed very soon. Not yet, but SOON.

Felt you've done your part well enough, n you've got a clear conscience. Then i aint speaking about you. Because if u think you've done your best. I'm fine with it. Is there a slight tinge of guilt? rephrase, An apparent sense of GUILT due to lack of responsibility? yes? Then its you i'm talkin about.

P/S: this applies to EVERY OTHER BLOODY IRRESPONSIBLE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD

i hate doin editorial work. But i chose to do it. Why? i dont want others to screw my work. It's MY grades. Just FYI if you dont realize, its YOUR grades too. I dont expect it to be Perfectly done, or in super good english, or with 1000 words for each part. ALL i expect. i repeat, ALL I EXPECT is for it to be given to me ON time, n with a certain degree of content. I need RESPONSIBILITY from all you (presumably) adults! If u say u'd give me by today, make sure its done by TODAY. if u cant, u jolly well tell me the day before that it cant be done. You do what you say, because you are responsible for your choices, and LIABLE for your words.

I'm trying very hard this semester. For once, i want to do well in school. Its prolly the last time i'm gonna study. Im pouring my heart n soul into the things i do. I havent felt so strongly about "life" for a long time. I like my work, i like the things i'm studying and doing, i like the relationships i have. I LOVE LIFE NOW. I spent every waking hour of mine either doin school related things, working, (excluding blogging) even compromising the little time i have with eric. I aint a great person at projects. i aint a super duper good worker. not the perfect girlfriend either. What matters, is that i'm trying, n i've got a no doubt about that

to the fuckers (or fuckers to be) that take me for granted. Screw you. Wana continue leading a life of no responsibility, thinking your own world is "oh-so-hard" and you're so busy, getting no life this and that shit. Think AGAIN. If you do have time to watch TV progs at home in real time, SHuddit. You dont qualify to even breath a word of unhappiness. The TV junkie, channel 55 freak, is now reduced to a 1.5 hr show, EACH WEEK, on tape.

i apologize if i'm a lil vulgar or rude.. or concieted. But i made no mention of names. I aint implying. I mentioned, if u've got a clear conscience bout things, you know i aint speaking about you! I didnt mention names.. you placed yourself in there. Dont go round sayin what a bitch i am. Then again. Go ahead. Dont mind being one anyway. Percieve all you want, your life's a lie anyway.

btw in life,
some may hate me,
for starters,
i dont like you very much either.
I dont quite give a fart about you. =)

Somehow it makes me feel so much better knowing that the feeling is somewhat mutual.
Ever thought that the problem lies with yourself and not me?
If the problem lies with me, then its MY problem.
What if its yours?
go clear you fcuked up head.
Once again. no names mentioned.
If u're sensitive n oh so "emo-emo" now.
i cant help you.
God bless.

time to head meet prisc for the PROjECT! :(