4th july. Stressipendent day

while i'm waiting for my hair to dry i'd juz blog. since there's no one online at tis un-earthly hour. P/S: i'm god damn tired. and i do mean the tears oozing, body aching, pimple popping, body heat rising, ulcer swelling tired. (get the drift?)

Lets just say tt i fell asleep at bout 5am, got up at 830am. And my day started as early as such. 4th july. independence day. great. the day where i feel most vulnerable. and ever weary. 1. School 2. Work. Why must both coincide so precisely!? to the point where i've got no breathing space/sms time!!! and im literally brain dead. Alright. i AM exaggarating a little. But do hear me out. or rather, lemme rant it all, cuz its not every 4th of July that i feel so constricted. Independence day!? my pretty ass! To me, its the start of hectic/frantic mind boggling work/study lifestyle. Aint sayin tt i cant take it. Just say tt it's gona b tough. euGh.

School
met up with ivan for lunch, and time passed damn slowly at al ameen.. got a $30 summon! sigh. havent got the strength 2 curse n swear anymore. Its due to my carelessness anyway. Lesson learnt, point noted. After the bad stuff, here comes the stress...

Out of 4 mandatory texts, 2 are sold out! like WTH!? Isnt it the 1st day of school!?!?!Nevertheless, Next up was a lecture full of girls, weird looking guys, and stress. Projs are REALLY gonna b due in 5 weeks. Lots of books and references needed, not enough books in the lib 2 go around, aint got enough proJ members for 1 subject. Not like there's much to worry about, but there's no room for slacking, since handouts are basically gonna b quite blank, and i've got the gr8 big task of figuring out what's goin on, n what's important. sigh. Guess i've been out of touch for too long a period of time. Time 2 start the engine!!!

Work
First day of live calls, scared the shits out of me! If u didnt see any butterflies around these days, they're prolly all in my stomache! scaared the shits out of myself. But it went fine nevertheless. Thanx to the patient senior that was helping out at the side. Some ppl aint that lucky to get a patient one.. pheW... Wonder how i did. Not up 2 expectation definately. but at least there's someone by my side. so it isnt that bad... on thursday, i'd b ON MY OWN. *panic*

k, i obviously am NOT in the mood 2 spruce things up and make things seem as tiring and stressful as it really is. feel dead.

It's just the first day, and it's because i aint used to it!!!! its always the begining that's tough, and it'll only get better! i Know it will. Be it school or work. It definately wiLL work out. and i'd do just fine. if i aint got Faith in myself, who wld!? GAMBATTE VAL! right... seems like i'm forcing the inner ME to agree tt it'll work out... but who cares! as long as it really does get better. hah..

im off to bed!