Shimin bday + fuckin pissed with myself

as usual.. its an EaRLY post. 4.19am.

Went for Shimin's bday celebration at Goodwood park hotel. HaPPy BiRthdaY buddy!!! but u prolly aint seein this. food was So-So. nothing fantastic, for those who even have the intention of heading down for buffet dinner, think twice. oh, and their service suck too! They cant get any dumber when they brought out the bday cake in its box and ask if we want to serve it! like huLLO!! the birthday girl's right heRe... and in what way is it gonna be a suprise now!?? dumb ass.

No idea why we headed down to mdm wong. Was supposed to be chillin at sum pub? frm 9 of us, down to 5, and in 2 cars.. so it's PartaE time people!!!.. Thinking back, its almost a year since i've clubbed. Glad i havent lost my clubbin "touch" **winks**.. however, i've lost the drinking element tho! heh.. details, shallnt elaborate.. i'd just say that i had fun dancing the whole way through. hyper active! could have danced longer, if it wasnt for the rest of em feelin way too tired.

nxt was supper at hv, and i'm Home!! legs are aching. No way i'm goin trekking with vivian an the rest tml. i wont get up. i'd prolly be the mosquito's main source of food. that's all.

i'm feeling down now... it's the "missing-eric-syndrome".. maybe it isnt the number of days we meet, maybe it isnt the amount of time we spent to gether. maybe it isnt the amount we communicate these days. maybe it isnt the bad vibes that i've got. maybe maybe.. then what is it? why am i feeing upset and moody!?. raHhh.. i juz know that all these bad vibes would go away when i get to see him on monday.. will monday come sooner?? will i fuckin stop being so paranoid bout the "i-miss-you-but-our-work-clash-i'm-afraid-we'd-drift-appart-over-time" issue!!?? i shld just go to bed like NOW NOW NOW... but im waiting for him to come back frm msia. maybe just a little chat? it does wonders at times... if i dont fuckin blame myself for the moodiness and "dull" sounding voice, who should i blame... i dont wana sound tis way.. but would i rather act?? bloody pissed off with myself now. i'm ranting, and i dont know why. so i should just shut the fuck up and hope and pray for the best, and stop bein so fuckin pissed with myself.