RaHhh!!!

i always feel so drained after work. As much as i love the job. Im starting to feel the strain... Its especially taxing since ive gotta work AND study at the same time. Stress is building up ever more than before since its the exam period. It may seem like a short working hr.. 5 hrs.... but STILL.... once i reach home. id switch on my lappy, sit on my chair and id feel glued there. All the happiness and chirpiness in me seem to have vanished!

i feel so sick and so dull now. after exams, i doubt id be applying for OT. i really do not not not not like working anymore. (not now at least)... i am so so tired. i rather stay home and do nothing! ugh... i feel more so this way.. especially now that my team's gona be "disbanded"... we'd be with the "real" working adults now. (as quoted by someone). So you think they're "real" working adults and we arent? just because we work part time and our main commitment is not work, doesnt lower our self expectations nor our work quality. If we wanted to, a fulltime job at our command ANYTIME. bastard...

Last proj to be handed in tmr. ugh. time to get it off my back. and its down to STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY! bahhh... this is a piece of bullshit.. this whole working thing.. control temper.. hang in there.. be strong..you can do it.. tough girl.. independent girl stuff is getting on my nerves. SOMEBODY PASS ME $$$$ please! ive decided that im not gona subject myself to these mental torture any longer. I need to get my priorities right. Unlike some people who get $$ from parents every month and spend it like nobody's business.. i CANT and i WONT. i wont find excuses for myself. id just simply have to shop less... eat less... save more. yes basically shop less. To all you lucky people out there who gets $$$ for doing nothing, and think ur parents are obliged to give u $$ and u can just splurge like there's no tomorrow and think that $$ comes from the sky. Im envious. and i want to be in ur shoes. BOoO!!!