a Life without ups and downs.

Is my life peaceful or what? These days, think it's no ups, no downs for me.

Good??
So val has always said tt she wants a stable life..
Can i change my mind??
I rather have an interesting one.
just to rid of my monotony..

How interesting can things get man.. i really wonder. Guess tis is life. When i look at guys, and realize tt most of them are starting to bald, it goes to show that time's flying really fast. How long ago was it tt our hair were just starting to thicken!?!? Now most of my male friends are starting 2 either have receding hairline (aka, the M-shape forehead) or the "di zhong hai" losely translated as .... (Nevermind). OK, it's called the bald patch.

with time passing me so quicky. Doubt i'd have time for an "interesting" lifestyle. i'm Gonna be boring ol val. Sian.

where's there excitement that comes with everything i do?
where's the enthusiasm?
where's the eagerness?
where's the comfort of just doing the stuff i do without seeming too childish?
Where's the ability to act like i dont care?
Where's the confidence to believe that i'm the best?
Where's the control i have in my emotions?

How should i behave so that i would SEEM that i'm not affected by other's perception?
How can i not be bothered by how others think?
How can i not be hurt by passing remarks unknowingly lashed out?
How can i stop being so sensitive?
How can i get the telepathy i once had?
How can i not feel negative?
How can i get the feeling that i am perfect?

Somethings just need to be induced.
Some promises, just need to be kept.
Some truth, just need to be told.
Some lessons i need to learn
some Other things i need to remember
Somethings... just cant be helped.
so Shld i let circumstances take over?

Show me the spark.. that was once there...
or is it my spunK that has died down??

I've goddit!!!
I'm just gona be me.
Take it or leave it.
(yeahh!! here comes the self confidence)
Enough of trying to be nice and good.
I am not.
Being yourself is always v impt.
If i'm not good enough.
So be it... However.... i know im the best. hahahhahaa
(Sorry.. it's a bad habit picked up)

NahHHHH juz feeling a lil... a lil monotonous.
Hence the ranting.

"EH hello! my bloG! u tink i got gah lan what u think!?!?"

OOps!