Are you out there, it's me.. valerie

gosh. i'm so bloody bored. Wrong word. "SIAN" is a more appropriate.

I feel so so so damn sianz lar.
Someone, bring me to xu liu shan please.....
How about a nice date? just You and me? any takers??

Dear God,
Are you out there? it's me.. Valerie..
(tittle as adapted frm "are you there god, it's me margaret" frm Judy Blume)

Wake me up!
Make me snap out of this need to WANT more of my own life.
Make me feel contented with whatever i have..
whatever i own.. no matter how big or small.

Dont let me covet for the impossible,
Dont allow me to wish for things which i long to have,
or even Feelings which i long to feel.

Just let me Be contented,
and at the same time,
NOT neglect my own feelings,
Nor b too sensitive.

Let someone see what's lurking behind those fearful eyes.
The fear of losing myself once again..
Let someone feel what some others felt
Just let me be at my very best!

People learn, People grow, People change.
Dont make me a victim of circumstances....
Allow me to do what i want, say wat i want.

Who took away the courage to express?
Who's gona allow my freedom of words?
Who made me irk, and feel ill ease with myselF?
Who rebutted the verbal expression of my heart?
EVERYONE said it isnt them.. and they'd never do that.
Infact.. they already did.

Makes no sense???

It's part 2 of:
YOU THINK I GOT GA LAN OR NOT!!?!??! - sometimes, it's onli nice when it comes out of williams mouth. ONLY williams mouth. and maybe yanglun.

As continued frm ytd's post. hah.