Spent the last 2hours tossing n turning in bed. Something was bugging me. Think i've got it all sorted out now. Or so I think. Enough of all those stupid resolutions which I never make good of. This time, it shall b for my own good if I succeed.
as unfortunate as it seems to you my concerned readers, I shall not and will not divulge it's exact content. Curiosity kills, so don't probe.
I did some reflection upon myself, I need to change. I want a certain outcome, so i've got to act a certain way. Because things aren't exactly going according to the way I wish it would.
My precise "to be" behavior is not a norm nor an inborn habit of mine. I've been led by past experiences n future expectations. I've thought it tru.things would definitely not work out at this rate. for the sad fact tt I'm not that adaptable to chg. And I harp on the "was" n "weres" n I think to myself why things weren't like b4!!. 101 reasons why. 100000001 things that can be done by others, however only 1factor's under ctrl. Myself.
I’ve taken a leap of faith. I trusted my instincts back then, I wanna have faith in myself now.
I'm growing up. It's for my own good.
I can do it. Stay if u will... I need someone. Somehow. My change was brought upon not by choice, but by the acknowledgement that it wld alivate the silent scream no one understands, n most importantly prevent drastic permanent changes to the soul I see feel, deep inside.....
Like I mentioned, its for the good of myself. Some other paths, where I am allowed to remain the same simply ain't an option... Not yet. Don't push me.
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