The source of evil? MEN.

The many many donts that girls look out for:

Dont have bf who's childish
Dont have a bf who smokes
Dont have a bf who flirts
Dont have a bf who ride a bike
Dont have a bf who's possessive
Dont have a bf who's stupid
Dont have a bf who's smarter than you by too much
Dont have a bf who's parents hate you
Dont have a bf who's bad in bed
Dont have a bf who looks fuggly
Dont have a bf who's too into working
Dont have a bf who can heck everything including you
Dont have a bf who have feelings for you only ocassionally
Dont have a bf who dont have similar interest as you
Dont have a bf who cant give in to your little wants
Dont have a bf who's not affectionate
Dont have a bf who lacks passion
Dont have a bf who dont make decisions
Dont hava a bf who's broke
Dont have a bf who has no time for you
Dont have a bf who dont make you happy
Dont have a bf who make u feel ugly and lose your self confidence
Dont have a bf who picks on you
Dont have a bf who dont love you for who u are

U see my point. the list can go on.....

Lastly, and more importantly.. Dont have a boyfriend you dont love.

To those who made it this far... after goin tru the many DONT. Thanks for identifying the crap which girls avoid. Those who skipped the "Donts" and came here, thanks for reading the continuation of my crap.

Despite the many many donts girls look out for. We get blinded. In the beginning. Everything would seem FINE. then problems would start surfacing and you realize the many many flaws someone has. By the time you know it. Its too late. you've committed yourself to a relationship and you cant pull out. Not many of us can.

What makes us pull out? what makes us snap? A posessive boyfriend? A boyfriend who doesnt care? A boyfriend who wants free time for himself? A boyfriend who tinks you're fat? A boyfriend who doesnt know if he loves you? Ive been through enough sob stories, heard even more of them. The reason girls give for leaving are aplenty. Wanna know the biased truth!? you GUYS caused it. (fine. i know it takes two. but im pro-female and im biased get it!?)

When this happens, there's nothing a guy can do. Cut the crap about wishing the person happiness. Mind your own business. Girls wanted happiness from YOU. YOU denied them THAT happiness. thats why they seeked external sources. It could have been you... but it'll never be again.

Girls are emotional creatures. Just as they're hard hearted creatures. If they say NO, it's gona be a NO NO NO NO NO and a NO. ask 10 more times. it'll still be a no. If you know who u are, you've got my best wishes. Pick urself up. Your brothers cant do it. Only you can.. Time, is your ally.

Things happen for a reason. Leaving for greener pastures is what everyone does. The love wasnt strong enough. So be it. It simply means it was never meant to be. You must have been through alot of hurt to come to that conclusion. You must have been hurting badly before you made up your mind. Again, If you know who u are... Im sorry it happened. You're a big girl. Your happiness. Your choice my dear... =)

There's always an ideal situation, an ideal relationship. However we dont live in an ideal world. I've faced the fact long ago. Im waaaayyy from an ideal relationship. There's so many things i wish to change. So many things i wish didnt happen. So many things i wish remained the same. I tried changing it, leading by behaviour. Yet all i got was negative reinforcements. Beyond my control i should say. The weird thing is. Since some incident, I no longer wish to control anything. The more i want something, the more i dont get it. The more i wish things happened in one way, the more it happened in another. Ive became the kitten in the relationship again. But i dont mind. I feel perfectly fine this way. Why!? Cuz i feel different now. My feelings aint the same anymore. It kinda changed. Its a very mellow kind of feelin. Things that use to hurt hell lot, now only sting. Well that's of cuz. Me of all person! =) im a creature of high adaptability. Its only natural.. if u change, ive gotta change to suit you. The reverse would never be true unfortunately. If i dont... id only b hurting myself. When im hurt, you aint sensitive enough to know. The pressure aint on you. its on myself now. When i feel all alone sometimes, I cant think of anybody i want by my side. We're all bz with our own stuff, and we're different. That's what i chant to myself ever so often.

Im sorry. I wont be going to australia with you. I cant do it. Ive never said it, but you know why. I know you'd respect my decision. Im not sure if i even made the right choice tho. But right now, there isnt a choice. Going is equivalent to leaving. His feelings for me will never sustain if im not here. I use to we could pull through if im away for 6mths. I use to think his view of the relationship was strong. apparently 6monthis is enough for this relationship to start and almost come to an end. Im sorry.. You know i cannot do it. Its like breaking a promise to a best friend, vs treasuring a relationship (which you r not sure if the other party treasures). I cant risk breaking my heart and falling into depression again. My choice has to be to stay in SG. Because If i leave, he may cause the relationship to fail. If i stay... The relationship is still workable... and i'd always have you.



Im feeling god damnned irritated now. Not many things matter anymore. HAVE IT YOUR WAY!!! ALL OF YOU!!! I LOSE YOU WIN. SO WHAT THE FUCK DO U EXPECT ME TO DO!? Bloody customers. Fuckin irritating ppl around me. Damned things happening to me.

When i have to say that ive got cravings for famous amos cookies... tell you about it... wait for you to say you'd buy it... only to hear you say that im coughing and you 'd buy it next time... there's nothing wrong. When i have to walk pass the shop.. telling myself not to buy it or u wont buy it for me if u knew i had it... there's something wrong. WHY!? becuz im a DIY girl. Not in a RA way thank you. If i want it... i get it. what's wrong with me now!? I'd get some on sunday..

Oh Damn bloody mood!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!