Guys and Games

Look, im gona rant. Bugger off. Dont even bother reading it. Cuz my boyfriend doesnt even visit my blog anymore. So i can just rant all i want. not as if he's gona see any of it. Ive got a VALID reason to be pissed. and no its not PMS.

Here's why. Im working till 11 today, and he was supposed to pick me up.. i can understand if he's tired after his gym, so i told him its ok, we can confirm on that later on. now.. that was YESTERDAY. So this boyfriend of mine... msged me in the evening saying he aint goin to the gym no more. he's gona meet his friend for dinner. Coolness! so he can pick me up. Or so i assumed. Well.. if u and ur gf hardly spent time together.. and she's like squeezing out every possible time to be with u, aint it only correct if u pick her up after work!? not to mention the fact that she stays 1 street from you and you drive! and her work place is a 15 min drive from home.

So i called him at bout 1030, cuz he havent even replied my msg ever since, and i called and called n called. mind u, im working. i called till the phone refused to ring for 3 times. AND i had to get back to work. FINALLY...... he replied my call. i asked where he was? playing LAN GAME... was he picking me up... ??? he asked the time. and he said he wont be able to make it. Sweet.

I can understand that he wants time for himself... But LAN GAME!? whats it with GUYS and GAMES!? i know.. its like GIRLS and SHOPPING......... i dont expect much already. im just wanting the basics. and i cant even get that. u cant provide for my shopping, living expense. Forget it. i happen to be able to do it ON MY OWN. but u cant even provide me with the warmth that i wana feel. then thats just too bad. cuz im feeling fucking pissed off right now. U wld rather PLAY GAME, which u already have at home, than to pick me up after work. YOU didnt even have the courtesy to msg me to tell me where u were... u had the cheek to make me call n call n call and not pick up, for the simple reason that u didnt hear it. True enough its really noisy there... and i shldnt be disturbing ur game. BUT. Isnt it YOUR duty to tell me if u are picking or not picking me up!?

Whats it with GUYS and GAME!? Here r some basic criterion for my NEXT boyfriend. if there is gona be any. HE must NOT smoke, and NO GAME!!!!! NO NO NO! understand!?!?!? no EXCESSIVE GAMING. PERIOD! FULLSTOP.

Fine. he isnt that into game. he'd definately say that. For sure. he doenst smoke alot. he'd say that too. but if u can play game, forget bout picking ur gf, and be a weekend smoker when ur weekends start on wednesday. i really wonder.

Cool . u apologized. I didnt wana pick a fight. U were wrong. u knew it. Im pissed. u know it too. U'd make it up to me tomorrow u say!~? like HOW!? flowers? cards? i havent received FLOWERS in a long time. u havent even given me my bday card. U said u were gona buy me a photo frame!? u were gona cut dwn smoking!? yea. right. Im sensitive, im emotional, your're insensitve, you're unemotional. So what am i gonna do bout it!? Im trying my best to be rational, and keep my cool most of the time.

But this time is just IT. I snapped. i cant help but feel the fury in my cheeks. i felt flushed up. even my parents asked why i looked so flushed. Ive got this ex bf.. Weisheng.. in secondary skool... he use to play games... and i was always left alone. i didnt mind. till he broke up with me cuz of another girl. That was one major flaw he had. i told myself NO GAME FREAK. Game freak by definition!? give up something more important for GAMEING.

Im fuggingly pissed! but i accept ur apology. Tomorrow wld be a better day. Know what im gona do now!? im gona do something i dont usually do. PUSH UPS and SIT UPS. Keep my fury at bay.

Go ahead people. tag all u want. sms me, talk to me. anything. He wont visit n see it either. Does he even know i changed skin!? he can watch soccer, bet soccer, play game,... anything but care about what's goin on in his gf's life, and what are his gf's need.

50pushups 100 sit ups. HERE I COME!