Shuddup val

i know i always say that nothing is too hard for me to handle...

still agree on that.

Cant believe that im i broke down in tears, for matters not related to the heart. haha. Its usually the relationship stuff that made me cry.... today... none of the sort.

Guess its the combination of afew factors.

1. When work sucks and there's no avenue for me to complain i just swallow it.
2. Nasty STUPID people call C-U-S-T-O-M-E-R-S are freggin pea brained and it makes me mad
3. i havent had much food today which puts me in a bad mood cuz of low sugar level
4. my period's coming soon tho i dont know when, and it makes me pms-sy
5. im fuggin gainning weight and i jolly well can tell!!!
6. after this proj, there's another one. and another and another.. why must i rush for deadlines no matter how early i start!?
7. i dont think i can find relevant reference for projects
8. i wanna score well for projects
9. Wana work hard for good grades..
10. feel worst cuz i feel this way as i feel im weak so i feel bad. gedit? no. neither do i.
11. vday is round the corner and ive yet to get a gift
12. i feel stupid for wanting flowers despite the extorbitant prices.
13. there's no time to go out for vday dinner tho i say every day is vday and yes i do eat everyday!
14. i wana get my girlies vday presie, but i aint got the $!
15. there's no big tv to watch at home!

Im giving myself too much pressure.. not like its alot. its the same everyday... im juz "weaker" today.. fiine!??

Just finding fault with everything around me. (except james who had a long day himself... only to find his pathetic girl friend whining away).. im sorrreeeeeyyyyy =( make it up tmr okes?

YOU SUCK VAL!!!!

At this point of time, im having a bad headache, wallowing away in self pity. Unbashly typing out this embarassing blog which signifys the weak side of me.. (hell wld i care..), tearing my mascarra off, and STILL thinking of food.

i must b horribly hungry.

yes i am hungry... i wanna eat xiao long baooooo.... i wana eat XXXL chicken frm shiling.. the floss crepe.. i wana eat raaaaamen... i dont have anything at home...... NOT EVEN A BIG TV! damn it!

To whiner val: "SHuddup, go shower, and.. yeah.. SHUDDUP!!"