crapshit day

just got back from supper with steph and charlie at cjade HV..

had my "pi dan shou rou zhou" without "Pi dan".
aka
Century egg + lean meat porridge without century egg.
there's no lean meat porridge on the menu...


"Dont try too hard to be nice... Ok?"
-----> do i ???

Wait. am i even a nice person to start with!?
Relatively id say... only to selected few.

Im sorry if i gave anyone the impression i was trying to be nice...
when i treat u nice, i really mean it. Without pretense.

when i dislike someone. Its full fledge. its WARRR! haha...

with an exception of those assholic customers... i feel that im a relatively happy and ReaL person...

But im very tired. very weary... im kinda in a state of dillusion where i REFUSE to do work... i just wanna sleep. going to work every evening seems like some form of a release...

val's a smart girl. she can do it

I seek solace... and mental comfort...