Tribute....

Its a drizzly rainy night, and all i wish to do now, is snuggle up in bed, and fall deep into an abyss of sleep, soft petals and comfortable loving arms. *SNAP* Unfortunately, there's projects to do, AND there are too many things on my mind. Guess once again i'd blog, its part of my memory. Just more truthful with vulgarities, harsh facts, as well as sugar and spice.

To me and many others, Memories fade, so does feelings.. even love, everything with TIME. A blog's a snapshot of my life... I'd forget things in time to come, even lessons i've learnt. A blog, like a diary, serves as memorable scribbles, at that very point in time..

I felt devastated yesterday. Still am now.. and for a long long time to come i suppose. Just that now.. i feel thankful and grateful for whatever i have. In case i never live to tell the world how i feel, here's my sincere tribute to all those who apparently care..

Disclaimer:
In no order of prefernce,
non-exhausive,
may include fatalities such as unintentional omission, due to failing memory and tired burnt out mind, as well as a broken heart.
Not everione reads it... not everything is intended for everyone.. aniwae... it's a
LONGGGGG post..

Priscilla

My buddy in school as well as out of school, she's one person i can pick up the phone n buzz any time. and feel comfortable talking to her about anything under the sun. Our idealogies may differ at times, but as a whole, i really enjoy her company and whatever probs we've shared with each other. She shares with me her guy probs, and so do i.. Thank god we've got different taste in guys..

She wants to help me, but she knows there's no way she can do so. All she does is to stay there, and just BE THERE for me. hearing me whine, listening to how upset i am at times. Watching my crappy side in schoool, and face the upset depresed val at home. She wishes me the best... and i sincerely thank her for all her wishes. No matter what happens. You're one person i can count on. N you can count on me too babe. Thank You.

Jac
-Space out- Thinking of the times in poly, tinking of butterscotchnmint. thinking of what happened, and why we arent as close as before. Situational factors i'd say. we enjoyed each other's company, we were in the same class etc. Yet... i guess, we lead different lifestyles. She's the dare-devil. defying everything and anything, and going for whatever she believes in and doing whatever she deems fit. She look great, dress great.. I really look up to her. Guess we became apart in yr 3.. and subsequently the story goes.

One day, u msged me, saying that.... there's always an old friend back there which i can turn back to... i almost teared after reading that msg. You're an Old friend... i realized. But u still care, and u still DO bother. Our lives may not cross path that much, neither do we make an effort for it to! Yet u msged me, telling me that u'd be there if i ever need you. Thank you for letting me know that i'm never forgotten... No matter how many million other friends u have made.

Dora

I've got no idea why i msged u online when i realized tt u were down... do u consider that as "being there for u?" i just felt the sudden impulse to talk to you, and make sure u were better. Now... i guess u're moving on... not totally well for sure, but definately moving on. Yet, you turn back, to see where i am... u turn back, and stretched out a helping hand... in aid to pull me up frm the quicksand i'm in. You made me realize that perhaps.... one good deed deserves another. I had no "need" to speak to you... but then, you prolly wont give a damn to what happen to me.. U've been there, been through much worst stuff. and u're back up on ur feet... still wobbly, but definately up. U're an inspiration, and a motivation... because u make me wana stand up too! thank you dora, for the lil attention you bestow on me.

Zheng Hong Wei

Who are u!? guess most readers dont know who u are... You might not even remember who u are to me... Let me refresh your memory then.. You are the guy, whom i liked in primary school. we had this "thing" going on, where you'd sent me home frm school, and i'd deliberately stay back. You'd write me these songs with edited lyrics. and a "card" with ur number address etc. Guess that's what u term as childhood romance aint it!? Then.. u were also the guy, who stood me up on my b-day on that year where i was pri 5, ( or is it 6?)... We went home 2gether every wed.. Yet.... on MY birthday.. you didnt turn up... i found out u went back with some other girl. what a "break up".. haha. i was upset back then. But i definately got over u mr zheng. If there's any one ever gona be between us, then now and in future. it'll be Man United! haha..

You re-found me through someone's some's someons friend!? or is it!? hmm. U remembered, u took the effort! *impressed*.. what impressed me further, is that.. you READ MY BLOG!!! and u even msg me asking me 2 cheer up. i mean, reading a blog, and msging some to make sure the person's fine may be something that's normal to others.. but definately not to me. When i saw ur msg in lecture. I smiled. I smiled because an 8 year friend is found (again), and he cares. wait. It's 10 years already!!! Thank you hongwei.. thankyou bus 334.. thank you Chinese lessons, which brought us together.

Princess Key.

I dont think ever we spoke more than 10 sentenses in person to each other... Priscy's right. we're kinda alike. Yes, we're both chatter boxes.. we're both stupid and heart broken, and played out. baHh.. You're pretty.. *whispers* SO AM I!.. hahaha.. ok, u win, :P the truth is.. you're more eligible than me!!!!!!! well, it's true u dont like just ANY guy.. but, wise up my dear, you and me, we'd go through our probs these shit time togetheer.

Thank you for constantly being online, so i'd have SOMEONE to turn to. On that devastating morning, u were there, "reading" me pour my heart n soul out... U gave me the courage and strength to make certain decisions, that i have yet to regret. We hardly know each other. yet you're someone i consider a Friend. Guess i just have to think of myself... and that's probably u!? well... modified version of cuz... Priscy said we were similar.. *grinz*... thank you babe. Thank you for making me feel less alienated in this world of fugged decisions.

Kenn
thank you for entertaining me Online, and even at work... u're one funny guy.. hardly know u... dont even think u say much consoling words.. you just make me laugh. You're one funny guy.. Feel entertained n lightheart when u're around. Thinking back on some of ur antics *personal secret* i'd juz grin frm ear to ear. u're a great guy...even when u say "Fucking customer".. it feels like a joke, and i cant feel ur anger.. hah... u provide a sense of momentarily happiness, where i just forget things at that point of time. and you're prolly the only one who bothers to DRAW!!!

Thank you, for being yourself,and at the same time entertaing me!

OM
You of all person should know how i feel, somethings are meant to be said, other meant to be kept close to the heart... Whenever i've got no idea where my msgs and feelings at the spur of the moment should go, it'll be to u. u're ever understanding to my temprement.. and u even empathize with me sharing ur views, experiences, thoughts and many more... so so so much more... always believing in my capabilities and telling me how good i am, in hope of making me really believe that i am what u think i am..

I promise.. i will not compromise. In that way.. you wont need to worry. =) thank you for everything and so much more. P.s. that includes the cake. That's really sweet. U're right..its like a birthday!! a new beginning.. i'd be celebrating it.. not just today, but Every day of my life.

~~~~ to be continued~~~~~ many more to go... look out for it... =)
i'm tired... time for bed :)